Not dealing a break up very well!

[Sidy11]

I just wanted to get a little feedback into my situation regarding a recent break up. I was someone and at the time things were going so perfectly at the time- we couldn't get enough of each other, messaging each other continuously throughout the day and her telling her friends she thinks she is going to spend the rest of her life with me.

 

When I came back from holiday and I screamed in her face regarding a stressful situation, very uncharacteristically, I don't know why I reacted like that but she was so shocked to see me react like that, that it did hurt her at the time. I argued with her again 2 days later just before the time we was going to Paris (all paid for by me). We went to Paris, tension rising and we had a fantastic time. We had an argument on the last night, the next morning everything was fine and when we got back from holiday she broke it off and said I don't know how I feel because it was 3 arguments back to back and she was so shocked to see me react that way. The stress/whole arguments were in my eyes caused by an ex of mine ringing me up when I had sent her an accidental Snapchat of me and my girlfriend in bed together at my house just before we went to Paris. The ex messaged my girlfriend on Facebook when we came back from Paris and said I was at her house last night and I had slept with her, when it was a load of rubbish. When my girlfriend (who is now my ex) confronted me about it I told her since sending the Snapchat I had been receiving phone calls to my house from her and her friends because they were angry about it. I never meant to do it, I didn't even know I had her in my snap chats list but my ex did believe me because I was honest about it, but was disappointed that I did not tell her sooner and stated how could she ever trust me if I won't discuss these things with her. I told her I did not tell her because I wanted to protect her from it and because I did not want it to spoil Paris for us, and that before then I had not spoke to my ex.

 

During this break up time she said she needed space, the moments I gave her space she text me because she said she loves me and misses me which resulted in a heated argument where she shouted words at me and I said things I did not mean which she said were unforgivable. We did not speak for 4-7 days and she messaged me saying ''I need to talk to you". I asked her what was wrong, she said oh it does not matter and then when I pressed her about it she stated she was talking to her best friend because she was missing me and wanted to know if she could sort things out between us to move on and be happy. She told me she needed to talk to me. We were getting along well, she was messaging me every night. I did not know what to do so I always left her to message first. We organised a meeting because she and I agreed that we both needed to talk, when we spoke she again reiterated that she did not know what she wanted and she needed time and space to figure it all out. On that same night I gave her a birthday gift what I had stored in my house, it was a lovely pair of shoes she had always wanted, and when receiving them she was so happy, and sent me a message that night telling me she loved me and that it was the best present ever. She told all of her friends about it and they said what a nice thing it was for me to do for her. Two days later we were messaging each other, she was all flirty and nice with me and then cut me dead for a few hours, so when I never contacted her for a few hours to her reply she contacted me and I basically told her I feel like I am being messed around and that It was not fair for her to string me along like this because I am nobody's mug. She apologised and said she is confused and she does not mean to intentionally do this but that she is confused, she needs time to figure it all out and that she does not know if she can forgive all what I said to her. A day later I asked for the shoes back (as she offered me them back) and she blocked and deleted me off every contact possible. My sister got involved, her sister got involved and it all got a little messy regarding this pair of shoes. The next day when she contacted me about dropping the shoes off, I told her I was a little angry regarding the argument we had and I wanted her to keep the shoes because it was a gift that I got for her and it was worth putting a smile on her face. We got talking and she told me she could not give me the space because she misses me like mad now, and because she misses me she had to contact me. I told her I needed some space too, to get out from all of this tension as it is just making every situation worse. We have not spoke for 4 days, but we are working together in a few weeks and it is her birthday in a few days. I feel like I should just not contact her for a month (not even send her a birthday message) and see how we both feel when things have calmed down or just walk away for good. It's obvious we both love one another and miss each other but the no space thing is obviously causing a major problem and it's making us both behave in ways we don't normally behave in. The problem is that we work in the same place as each other and I am working on the same shift as her in a few weeks as overtime, I can cancel the shift that day if I wanted to just to stay away from her or work it and just get on with it. I feel if there is any chance of us getting back together we need at least 30 days of no contact because none of us have a clear mind. Any suggestions?

Edited July 22, 2016 by Sidy11

[HumanMachine]

You accidently sent a sc to your ex of you and your current gf in bed.. Right

 

Why is your ex on your sc in the first place?

[Sidy11]

I don't know, I never even knew I had her on it. She's forgot about that so that isn't even an issue now. That's not what is holding anything back.