avocadoh8 Posted July 13, 2016 Posted July 13, 2016 After a class trip in college, where we bonded rather well, a friend and I started hanging out more and more leading to a relationship of roughly 2 months. I'm in college, and having never been in a real relationship, was scared of it ending. But we really had good times together and many many common interests (especially music) that attracted him to me as a friend in the first place. Well he broke up with me, two days after a small argument and one day after he apologized over text and said he thought i was the best for him. Back when he said that I felt like I should be happy and relieved, but I wasn't, I felt like he had many things going on in his life that he prioritized over me, and I didn't want to feel like a burden or just a hookup. After the breakup, I was happy as we decided to be friends, maybe go to concerts together. but obviously it didn't work out. After a strained conversation where I told him to not talk to me for a while and a drunk text a few days later, I haven't communicated with him for two months. I was very very sad after but college ending for the summer and us living three hours apart definitely helped. I also unfollowed him on snapchat and spotify though we are friends on mainstream media like Facebook and Twitter. Now school is still a month away but I am nervous. We are signed up for a class together that I planned on dropping but decided against it as there are 100 people enrolled. I've taken a class with someone who liked me and it was awkward but okay. I realize that this is different because I still have feelings for him. Seeing him would make me upset. But i really want to take the class. What makes it harder is that we have friends in there too that are closer to him. Furthermore, everytime I rsvp to a concert on FB he has too. I feel petty reading this but I really thought I was over him, I mean it was so short. I can't even hate him, he's a great person, he just didn't like me romantically, and that's okay. I guess because it ended so amicably I don't know what to do. I thought I could move on, get back to school and be friends with him, but I'm realizing I can't. I have a busy summer job and friends and still think about him. If the relationship was so short why does it still hurt? Is it most likely that he's forgotten about me? Should i try something causal to heal?
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