Carguy23 Posted July 7, 2016 Posted July 7, 2016 This may be lengthy, but here it goes. My story begins with high school, where I met my very first love and the girl I still want to spend my life with. Her and I right away had an amazing connection and ended up dating after having an amazing friendship of 6 months. We dated a total of 3 years and 4 months. Around 1 1/2 of dating she suddenly one week told me she did not want to be with me and decided to break up with me. Her excuse was that she just wanted to be single now. I'm begged her for another chance and she gave me one week to prove that we should be togetherm. During that week she suddenly had new friends and was out with them all evening until the end of the week came around and she admitted to me that she had been with another guy and she slept with him. It was at that moment she said she realized she truly loved me and made the worst mistake of her life. I forgave her right away and we worked through the hardship. She began putting all of her life into us, everything was going great, made some of the most unforgettable memories that I will never forget. It was around January of this year that we began to have problems. I stop putting in effort and didn't care half of the time when we fought. There were times that I didn't do things that I should I have. I had become unsure of my future that we had planned together. We were supposed to get married. We started having frequent break ups...she would get mad at me for the smallest things and I would with her. We became very jealous of each other at times. Yet, we still had our good times and loved each other through all of this mess. It was in March however that a girl started talking to me and it took away stress from my relationship. Long story short my ex found me cruising around with her. The girl and I never slept together. It was then that my ex pleaded for me and I pushed her away, which I will forever hate myself for. Them about a month after the whole thing me and her reconciled and promised that through thick and thin we both know that we want each other for the rest of our lives. The next day I didn't call her and she called me. I told her we have to take it slow and be friends again first because we needed time to forgive each other and to make things right That night she went and hung out with a new guy who she ended up sleeping with a few days later. She told me she really liked him and that she's moving on. I began to beg for her. We both kept contact and she went behind the other guys back to talk and to see me. I ended up doing everything I could to ruin things with her new guy...a rebound as she called it...and to get her back. She came back and forth to me throughout the last few months. There would be a week that she wanted me and wanted to be us again, then she would hate me the next week and begin to talk to a new guy. The last time this happened was the fifth time. Her and I spent three weeks together and she at one point wanted to make it official again and told me she loved me, then when I asked her out she was unsure what she wanted once again. During this time I talked to her friends and her mother who I am very close with about what I should do, which was probably my biggest mistake. We ended up spending a day together last week that started out rough but turned out to be fun and amazing and actually brought us together. It was the next day that she told me her father had spoken with her and told her he thinks I'm trying to control her life and she said that we could only be friends for now. I found out a few days later that she was back messing around with the guy who was her rebound and is going to being getting into a relationship with him. They had just started talking again. I blew up at her and we did not talk for a few days until I tried to talk to her just a day ago. I asked about everything she had said the last few weeks and how she wanted to be with me and now this. She told me she was fooling herself and it was all just a lie. She also,said she's,moving on because her father will never feel the same about me after I had hurt her and she wants him to love her new "favorite". She cut off all contact with me and threatened me with a restraining order when I tried to talk to her after that. Now during the time we had spent together during the last few months of us being off and on we had began to argue from time to time about her saying she wanted to be with me but how she would go talk to new guys and let guys hit on her in front of me. She also has completely changed who she is during this time. She used to be very religious and would seldom drink. She new parties all the time and hangs out with a new crowd. The things she does and says just are not the girl I used to know. She isn't herself anymore and I'm not the only one noticing this. She says she's happier now and that she's moving on...this is the fifth time she has said this but this time is different. I know how much we loved each other and how perfect we were when we were together..and she has admitted it during this time. I forgive her for everything that has happened and I still cannot stay mad at her for anything. She is the most perfect person in my eyes and I cant see my life without her. Just a few months ago she was a girl who loved me to death and would give her life for me. Now she's a party animal who has kicked me out of her life and is moving on with her old rebound. Should I wait for her to find herself and hope she comes back again? I'll wait for her. I know she's the one. If I only could put into words how much we loved each other I would. What should I do?
lolablue17 Posted July 7, 2016 Posted July 7, 2016 If you choose misery, many years of tears, pain, etc..., then wait for her and take her back when she comes to you in the future. If you choose sanity, mentally healthiness, and being a man, then you know what to do. Never take her back even if she comes tomorrow, begging you to marry her. My bet - you're gonna choose option number 1.
Author Carguy23 Posted July 7, 2016 Author Posted July 7, 2016 I'm working on taking option number 2. Just very hard to get over her. I've gone through hell for the last few months fighting for her. She has used me as a fall back it seams. Whenever she needed someone to be there for her She came running because I have always been the one to love her uncondtionaly. I'll try moving on.
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