urmysong Posted July 6, 2016 Posted July 6, 2016 I feel so down today. I read his email again before he broke up with me. I don't know why I did read it again. This is one of the reason why he broke up with me. Was it enough ? His email.... "Let’s talk about us now. Few days ago I went to supermarket . After returned, Kevin asked : you do not tell Mom anymore when you take a car and where you go with it ? So you start using Kevin now to enforce your rule that I am not allowed to leave house without your supervision. Very wrong it is, to use Kevin to relief your frustration with me taking your car and going somewhere without your permission." I wanted to explain but I didn't cause he doesn't believe me. I wanted to email him this...but he will not understand. "You leave the house without telling me where You go and Your son asked me when he see the car is not there. "Mama, where is the car?" I said " Papa has it and I don't know where he will go he did not tell me". I did not know what to say. I did not think that it is wrong to say like that. Of course You can leave the house without my permission. Why did You think I will say NO? When did I say No if You want something? Have You ever asked me that You want to go somewhere and I said No? When? Give me some sample so I will know. All I want You is to tell me where You are going so I will know which way to find You if something goes wrong. I just love You so much and I guess it is wrong to love You so much. I worried of You right away if I don't hear from You. And You don't want me to worry You but yet You just like leaving the house without telling me where. " Please guys tell me honestly if I am wrong. I feel so down right now. I still cannot believe 9 years is gone. I love him so much. I've been always faithful and honest wife. LDR is not that easy but I take it easy. And he will just dump me. Why do I love him so much? I cannot understand. I am just 28 and he is 56. But it's ripping my heart.
Zahara Posted July 6, 2016 Posted July 6, 2016 I'm sure there were all kinds of negativity going on in your relationship. Your past thread mentioned that he stopped wearing his wedding ring 3 years ago. Chances are there was much more going on that made him want to end the marriage, not just this one episode. He just used that as an excuse. Are you both LDR? Maybe he met someone else. Maybe he has lost feelings. Maybe he wants his freedom. Focus on your son. Delete all these emails and stop revisiting your past. Move forward. 1
Author urmysong Posted July 6, 2016 Author Posted July 6, 2016 He is home when no work during winter season. Approximately 4 months. Maybe You are right. He doesn't even want to chat us so our son can see him and i can see him and he can see us. No calls. Only emails. Last time he was home. He doesn't hug me anymore like he always do. Before he hugs me when sleep. Last time he was home, he sleeps facing on the other side of the bed and only me hugging him from back.
Zahara Posted July 6, 2016 Posted July 6, 2016 He is home when no work during winter season. Approximately 4 months. Maybe You are right. He doesn't even want to chat us so our son can see him and i can see him and he can see us. No calls. Only emails. Last time he was home. He doesn't hug me anymore like he always do. Before he hugs me when sleep. Last time he was home, he sleeps facing on the other side of the bed and only me hugging him from back. I'm not sure how to maintain a relationship when partners get to see each other 4 months in a year. It can take a toll. He wasn't invested anymore and was just going through the motions. I am sorry. It's time for you to accept, painful as it is and to move on.
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