Leemano Posted July 4, 2016 Posted July 4, 2016 Hello everyone, I am 17, my name is Lee, as you can see. But what i want to explain is my situation and id love to accept all opinions. Well, I once have almost been in love once with another girl a few years back, i thought I lover her since I didn't know what love felt like, when we broke up it didn't strike like how I'm feeling right now. this girl I truly fell in love with right now, is truly the right girl for me, she's loyal, kind, and beautiful, seems like the only girl in the world whole world who seens right for me, who'd love me the way she does, she brightens up my day every time I talk to her, since I have depression (not diagnosed) but I since I lost my grandma, and maybe one day to my mom after her drug addiction, it deeply sadden me but she is the only one keeping me happy. Recently i have movee into my step grandpas place out of town, (where i met this girl) and i have fallen in love for once in my life, and finally have something to look forward to, but recently i found out i have to move out because the cheques ive been getting to stay in this home has been cut off for the summer, and my caretakers said i have to move out either way if i get a job or not, because they said they cant take me every day to town, and there are no jobs available where im at. It's all thats been on my mind since i heard the news, im afraid I'll never find someone like her again because I have troubles making friends, and girlfriends, it took 17 years to find this perfect girl and i dont think i can oull it off again, my friend making skills are very low, it was like that to her at first but when i found out she likes me i asked her out, (which was very hard to find the courage to do) and after we started dating i started feeling comfortable and talking more, and eventually fell in love, its been 2 months and about 6 days since we started dating, i know its fast but i indeed fell hard for her, and she fell for me too, she told me. And every guy she dated cheated on her, and i was the only guy who wouldnt do such a thing, she told me im the only guy who loves her the way I do. She is outgoing yet shy, she makes friends easily and is beautiful, of course guys want her, and some day she'll find another right guy, I know it. When I told her the news she was sad, she didn't show it but I could tell, she asked me if I would find another girl, I said probably no, I asked her and she said she doesnt want to fall in love again, just hookups, and it hurt me so much to hear that, because alot of guys wabt to hook up with her, and before she mer me she was a hoe lol, its easy for her to get guys, but its very hard to get girls for me, since she was my first. But it will be heartbreaking to know she making other guys feel so good while I'm out there crying over her and dealing with bull**** life. (BTW she's 16 years old) and yeah, I've been on the brink of crying knowing I'm going to lose her, I've never loved any girl as much as her, i know i love her because shes all thats been on my mind since the news, I'm truly scared of the moment where I can't see her physically the way I do now, I love her with all my heart, and im sad to see it go like this, where its not my choice.. I want some serious advice or opinions about my situation please, I don't know who else to talk to. Here are some other facts to give out better advice: my brothers and sisters are in group homes (my brother recently ran away and is now discharged living at place to place), my goal is to get my own place and take care of them. I have people who want me in a large gang, they promised me money, a place to stay, and girls to ****, I'm considering this because of my breakup, because she'll be having sex while I'm not, I know its not a good decision but it will give me pride and time away from her, im just... Life is ****ty for me now and I don't know where else to turn to, I'll try my best to listen to advice and opiniins people have, thank you for reading this, much love, Lee
Author Leemano Posted July 10, 2016 Author Posted July 10, 2016 UPDATE: it moved out and we still talk, were friends, friends with benefits, she still tell me how much I meant to her, tells me she missed me, we have phone sex now. still, i feel very heartbroken, i have to worry about a place to stay, getting a job, and now i just feel so lonely, I have nobody to talk to about how i feel. Well, wanted to update, still waiting for a reply! <3
Heart..PLS STAHP Posted July 10, 2016 Posted July 10, 2016 (edited) First off you are very young. You are 17 and having your first girlfriend that you fall so hard for at that age is completely normal. I myself did that when I was 18. But know something - you are definetly going to have other girlfriends and this is not the ONLY girl that will ever date you. You are both too young. Consider that your thoughts are absolutely wrong. I don't understand you why you think you should have sex on a regular basis because she would... leave that person whatever she wants to do with her life. You don't have to do it too to save yourself from emotional rollercoaster because either way you will feel it. Not to mention you will absolutely make it worse for yourself. You have to NC if you have to be separate for sure. If you want to be together keep contact but trust me when I tell you this - friends with benefits or friends in general (which is a stupid term on its own when you obviously love that person) are out of the question. You will not move on and continue feeling sad to the point when you will break your heart too much. DON'T join that gang! Don't do nasty stuff to your life and cling on empty promises of grandeur. You will only make your life go from bad to worse. Continue with your lfie and focus on the positive things. Don't settle for something that will make you temporarily feel good about yourself because at the end it will only leave you more heartbroken. Not to mention you may get yourself in trouble with these guys and lose something more than a precious love like your health which is 10 times more important... Edited July 10, 2016 by Heart..PLS STAHP
Tribe Posted July 10, 2016 Posted July 10, 2016 UPDATE: it moved out and we still talk, were friends, friends with benefits, she still tell me how much I meant to her, tells me she missed me, we have phone sex now. still, i feel very heartbroken, i have to worry about a place to stay, getting a job, and now i just feel so lonely, I have nobody to talk to about how i feel. Well, wanted to update, still waiting for a reply! <3 Hang in there Lee, you've got quite a load on your shoulders. And you are also very young. It may feel like you don't have options, but you do. Just know that your heart will heel from this. You need to find as many distractions as you can. If you have your independence, then do whatever you have to do to move someplace where you can find a job. That's your number one priority. Every time you feel sad and lonely, or you think you are going to, get out of your place and go for a walk. At least 30 minutes. If you have headphones, listen to music. Just know and keep saying to yourself that this situation is temporary, and things will get better. The outlook might seem like it won't, but it will, it always does. Find ways to heal yourself, and don't rely on people to heal you. Not girls, gangs, parents. Just you.....you are strong enough. You are so young, I would advise you to wait til much later to think about having a permanent relationship. There is so much life for you to live and things for you to adventrure through without being tied down. You definitely need to get somewhere where you can find a job. A change of atmosephere will do you good. Only keep people and things that are healthy and good. Everything that is not, just try and let it roll by you like water down a river. Be strong!
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