breaking up even though u still love him

[Connor Blake]

im a gay man who is married. we havent been together that long so we moved very quickly in our relationship. these last couple months we have been fighting more and when he goes away for a day i like it as when before i coukdbt be away from him fir 5 mins. i stopped making an effort too and i started to feel unhappy and thinking bout ending it. well last night i did he cried and cried asking for another chance but it said no which makes me feel so cold saying no to someone i still love but know im not hapoy with. he stayed the night and we talked like old times as he wanted one more night of us together then today he was waiting for his mum to get him after work and all day we cuddled and cried. he kept saying i love you so much and i didnt say it back becuase i didnt want him to think he will have a chance but i regret not saying it as i do still love him and now that he has gone all i want to do i text him saying come bk i love you but i know deep down it wont work and it will drag out to the point that i dont love him. he was my first love and i cant imagine life without him now. i wanted to write this down as i dont have ppl to talk to

[salparadise]

I'm not getting the whole picture. Do you mean because you think he's going away to be with other people, or can you literally not tolerate him being out of sight? Please clarify.

[Giggles666]

I think he is saying he used to hate being without him for 5 minutes and now when he is gone for a day he feels good. So he's suffocating you? Is that the issue? I feel for the both of you, some clarity would help us help you.

[Connor Blake]

no what i mean is when i say he goes for a day i mean he goes to his mums and when i did i was happy to be alone

[Connor Blake]

he was very dominating and he knew that but it just took its toll on me

[Rainah]

Sounds like you needed space to breath.