sunshinegirl Posted June 25, 2005 Posted June 25, 2005 These of couple days have been a little hard. My ex broke up with me 5 months ago. Yesterday marks 1 year to the day of meeting him (so, yes, it was roughly a 6 month relationship). And a year ago today I was prancing around my house in excitement that he emailed me wanting to see me again. It was an amazing start. I was incredibly happy. Until the last month when he withdrew and wouldn't talk about it. I guess I'm moving on. After one slip 6 weeks ago, I'm back to NC. I've only seen him twice since January 2: once when he broke up with me after a 2 week break and once in March at church. I'm not sure what I'm posting about. I had a date Tuesday with a match.com guy and it was actually pretty good (I had 4 crap match dates before him). I got home later than I thought and we've been emailing a lot since. He wants to see me again. I think I want to see him again. But I also feel confused and sad. After the date I got in my car to go home and unexpectedly started crying because he's not my ex. He's not quite as charismatic. Not quite as charming. Not quite as easy a conversationalist. Two days later was the 1-year anniv of the day I met my ex, and I was doing the same thing on that day, for work, as I did a year ago the day we met, and I was working with the same mutual friend who introduced us. I just kept thinking "yep, and last year at this time I was heading to the bar where I met X" or "yeah, and then last year when I went over to my sister's house I was kind of excited about this guy I met." I guess I'm wondering when, when, when my ex is really going to fade into the background. When I'm going to be glad we didn't work out because I have some new perspective on the situation. When I'm going to stop comparing new men to him. When he's going to finally stay off the pedastal I built for him. I don't know that there's a question in any of this. I'm just in a newly sad place because of the anniversary stuff. Thanks for reading.
mizraim Posted June 25, 2005 Posted June 25, 2005 feel sorry..just like what they said, the wound heal but the scars remained.. but the sun will shine again...move on!
reservoirdog1 Posted June 25, 2005 Posted June 25, 2005 Until the significance of the dates fades from your mind with time, find out what else happened on the date in question, and re-name it. For instance, after my marriage ended, I renamed my wedding anniversary "Kent State Memorial Day".
clone Posted June 25, 2005 Posted June 25, 2005 it going on 6 months for me since my 6 year end. Time helps. But the memories of the days u spent together is the hardest part. Stay strong and someone (and yourself) will make u happy again.
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