naz Posted May 28, 2016 Posted May 28, 2016 (edited) this is gonna be a long post, so bear with me if you could. i just need to vent this out. 5 years ago, i met a girl at a concert. she was beautiful and i instantly knew that i have got to have her. and so i made a move, we were an item few weeks after. she came from a broken family, 6 of them living in a 2 room flat. she was working as a hotelier, where i'm from that doesnt make that much money. i, on the other hand, was fortunate enough to be born in a wealthy family. nevertheless, we had a wonderful relationship. we made trips together all the time, she moved in with me not long after and we have been living together ever since. over the course of 5 years, we had never had any big fights, non of us cheated, and all that. all the arguments were of petty little things. we were living a fairytale kind of relationship. however, because of her background, she has always been insecure. she keeps on comparing herself with other girls that i get acquainted with. now that i think of it, it seems like she hates her life. and she was always miserable. i didnt mind, i wanted to make her happy, thats all i ever wanted. fast forward to 2 months ago, we had an argument, and she left her job instantly and took off to an island in another state. she wanted to clear her mind off i suppose. she came back a week after, and i noticed that something was not right with her. we talked things out, and decided to end things between us. she then left to another state, 3 hours away from me. she said that she met another guy during her week off at the island, and she is moving in with him. she is still with that guy right now and he has been supporting her, paying off for her bills, cars, loan as she hasnt been working. the fact that she moved in with someone she barely knows and having him buying and paying for her things somehow bugs me. a decent person with self-pride wouldnt do that, would they? ive been raised in a way that if i wanted things, i would have to work and earn them, instead of asking. and im here, in my apartment feeling lonely. i dont know what to do or how to feel. i knew that we werent gonna work out, and i accept it. even if she decided to come back or begged me to take her, i wouldnt. but i miss her sooooo much it hurts. during the break up, she always texts me things like 'i miss you', 'i still love you' and all the breadcrumbs. ive recently initiated NC though. today is day 6. but i miss her sooo soo much. i dont know why, i know that i dont want her back, but still! not a second goes by that i dont think of her. and the worst part is, our mutual friends have been bombarding my phone asking me what happened and telling me what she said about me, negative things. and i'm so disappointed in her for accusing and backstabbing me. when people asks me what happened, i would just tell them that we arent compatible anymore. i dont understand why she would badmouth me to other people. but I MISS HER SOO MUCH!! Edited May 28, 2016 by naz
Scarlett.O'hara Posted May 29, 2016 Posted May 29, 2016 I understand it hurts a lot right now but these feelings will pass in time. This part is the hardest, you just have to be strong. If you keep thinking about her, do yourself a favor and try and think of the negative things you mentioned. This should remind you that she is not the right person for you. You may feel lonely right now but chances are you are going to be happier in the long run.
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