Lovestinks12 Posted May 21, 2016 Posted May 21, 2016 A year has passed since my ex of 4 years moved on to a happy relationship with a guy, which she most likely marry. Part of me wants to be happy for her, but my problem is that I haven't dated or found anyone I'm attracted too. I feel like the odds are stacked up against me at times. I see people who are lucky and just move from relationship to relationship with ease and I envy that. I know its not ideal to move from relationship to relationship, but at least they get to date.My self worth is in the toilet. I am 26 now and I'm finishing up my undergrad degree. At times, I feel like I've failed time and time again. 6 years ago I was severely injured and was teeter tottering on death ( sorry to be morbid), but without any avail, I survived and had a different outlook on life. As a result of the injury, I had some limitations that would impact how I was able to do certain things that I once was able to do. this experience made me want to live life differently. I was always some what shy with girls until this happened to me. The injury ironically gave me the courage to pursue things I wanted, even though I had some limitations. Its how I met my ex gf and the 4 years I was with my ex, made me lose my drive because i became too comfortable (the person she fell for to begin with). Its not the only reason she left, but that was 15 percent of it. anyway, getting back to school. My ex is graduating before me and she's younger than me. I have one more semester because it was only until my ex left, I realized I was in a daze with life. It upsets me to know that everything is going well for her and that part me that wants to be happy for her cant cause things aren't going well for me ( pity party). On top of that, I get really anxious when I realize that at some point, the little friends I have will all part ways at some point and I will be left alone with nothing. I still need to go to graduate school( another 2+ years before a career) , but I also want to go traveling for a year before its too late (3+ years if i go this route=30 years old before a career). The weird thing is the relationship ending has made me revert back to my old ways ( pre injury) . Now I feel like I can't attract the girls I want and I feel self conscience about my injury too, which doesn't help at all. You would think that all the negatives one goes through, one day they would get a positive or maybe my ex was my positive and I blew it . How come my ex found someone else thats making her happy and I cant't? feel free to criticize me. I need to be pointed in the right direction. sorry for the long rant. 1
Satu Posted May 21, 2016 Posted May 21, 2016 “The Moving Finger writes; and, having writ, Moves on: nor all thy Piety nor Wit Shall lure it back to cancel half a Line, Nor all thy Tears wash out a Word of it.” ― Omar Ahayyám I don't think you need any criticism. You've had some tough experiences, that you haven't fully healed from, thats all. Forget the future. You have no way of knowing what it will be. Absolutely no way. Live one day at a time, and make each day as good as it can be. Stop frightening yourself by imagining horrible futures. I'll leave you with another quote: "To be happy, be happy with what you have to be happy with." Start now. 1
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