binrob Posted May 15, 2016 Posted May 15, 2016 (edited) My ex left me at the end of 2014. We were each others first love and we were together for 4 years. After she left me she had a new boyfriend in less than a 2 weeks. She is still with him to this day. I have not been happy since. I still think about her everyday. I have had no contact since we broke up. I am blocked on facebook and her instagram is private so I am not aware of her social media activity. Since we broke up I changed a lot about myself. I moved to a new apartment, I quit my job and started studying at university. I have dated and have had sex with multiple women which I had not before since she was my first and I hers. Yet after all this time she is still on my mind everyday. I miss her everyday. When I text with other women I can find myself liking them only to lose interest every time we actually meet up to do something. I have not been happy since she left me. I have not been whole. People said that it gets easier but I have not found it so. You just get used to feeling the pain, get used to the constant missing and emptiness. When I dream about her, and she comes up to me and says that she misses me and she's sorry I find myself thinking "this cant be real...this isn't real" and suddenly I jerk awake. I don't want to feel like this and I envy her that she could move on so easily. I just want to do the same. How can I? Edited May 15, 2016 by binrob 1
brothers343 Posted May 15, 2016 Posted May 15, 2016 Maybe she hasn't moved on.......some people can take more pain,anguish,sadness, etc then others. Not everyone of us are born with the same fortitude. My point is that there is going to be some time in your Young life your gonna have to say to yourself that things happen and you just got to move on. If you let go of her completely......almost as she has dissappeard from this world then one day it will get easier for you. And thats a promise. Good luck buddy.
Author binrob Posted May 15, 2016 Author Posted May 15, 2016 Maybe she hasn't moved on.......some people can take more pain,anguish,sadness, etc then others. Not everyone of us are born with the same fortitude. My point is that there is going to be some time in your Young life your gonna have to say to yourself that things happen and you just got to move on. If you let go of her completely......almost as she has dissappeard from this world then one day it will get easier for you. And thats a promise. Good luck buddy. I don't think she hasn't moved on after being with this guy all this time. I think I have let her go. The thought of having her in my life ever again is almost ridiculous to me. I think the fact that even when she comes back to me in my dreams, the thought of it happening is so absurd that I wake myself up knowing it can't be real. But I guess emotionally she's still there. I don't really know what else to do for those emotions to go away. 1
Marc878 Posted May 15, 2016 Posted May 15, 2016 Not everyone is the same but it takes time. Seems like it just takes more for you. It's tough getting over your first love. good work on going back to university. That should keep you busy plus prepare you for a better life. Th more you do or have on your plate at this time the quicker you'll move on. You'll never completely forget her but she'll just become a memory.
Marc878 Posted May 15, 2016 Posted May 15, 2016 You're young this happens. At the moment you least expect you'll meet another.
Author binrob Posted May 19, 2016 Author Posted May 19, 2016 Not everyone is the same but it takes time. Seems like it just takes more for you. It's tough getting over your first love. good work on going back to university. That should keep you busy plus prepare you for a better life. Th more you do or have on your plate at this time the quicker you'll move on. You'll never completely forget her but she'll just become a memory. You're young this happens. At the moment you least expect you'll meet another. It wasn't tough for her. It's just so hard being like this, feeling like this for so damn long. I want to be happy again. I hope you are right and that someday everything will be fine. I just hope it's soon.
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