shutupanddance Posted May 15, 2016 Posted May 15, 2016 Hi everyone, So I have been reading this forum and finally decided to register and lay out my life issue in the hope that I will feel more at piece with what is going on in my miserable love life at the moment. To start, i met my ex bf 3 and a half years ago and we clicked and have been dating since until two months ago. I was his first gf and he was my longest relationship. We broke up early in the relationship a few years ago but then got back together a few months later and we never stopped talking until two months ago. We were having issues, we were having small arguments and it felt that even though all of his friends were in committed relationships and were moving in with their significant others - my special someone never felt ready to do it. He said he didn't love me anymore and he didn't see a big future. Fair enough. This is how we ended up things two months ago with tears and not sure what to do next. He suggested we stay friends and for some time we did. After two weeks of the BU we met up, had a great 'date' and hooked up again. He told me the day he broke up with me that he still actually loved me and that he had not completely crossed out the possibility of getting together someday. The next day I went abroad and came back almost a month later. During that month we would speak occasionally- roughly once a week. Everything was nice and chilled out. When I came back we spoke on the phone and we were planning to meet up when I asked him how he was seeing things. He told me he thought I knew and that he didn't want to get back together and that he didn't want to lead me on. Mind you, he suggested that if I changed my mind about going out I gave him a call. I told him I didn't want his friendship and that I would either be with him or have nothing at all. I was still really attached to him so a week after that day I contacted him and he seemed very uninterested in talking so I just left the conversation. It has been a week since that day and we haven't spoken. I am trying to go NC now and will try to move on. He probably is doing the same but I just don't understand how he made a 360 so quickly. I am not sure what will happen/what is happening. Most of the days I am at peace with this. But I can't stop but think about what a ****ing shame this is and how I have lost my best friend and the most important person in my life above all due to silly little arguments. We are in our mid 20s and I wish him nothing but the best even though I am dying inside. But I don't get how people can just move on like this and pretend like nothing has happened.. I wonder whether someday he will come back and whether when that day comes the door might be closed. Or whether he will move on and never look back
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