Maximboi23 Posted May 13, 2016 Posted May 13, 2016 Hi everyone, Been a while since I came on here to catch up or post any new threads. This site always helped me cope when I was going through a separation from my ex fiancé which is well over a year ago now. Actually found out she had a new baby and is married now. I was seeing this girl about last summer. I never really though i would Meet anyone for a while after my ex but she came in and I truly liked someone else again. As soon as she got in my car I loved her beauty and smile and it made me happy she was there. All things were good we talked deeply about personal things and she let me in on her past drug abuse problem. We were Intimite and together. I am not a secure person and actually I am very self conscious about myself because I sustained a burn scar on my face when I was a baby and never really accepted it. All my reassurances I kept asking her pushed her away and she left. Really was depressed and sad for months. Then here and there we talked a little and eventually hung out and it was never the same as first time. She told Me we needed to build a foundation and not rush it like the first time. So as we were hanging out, I realized she always wanted to go to the bar and drink and not want to do anything else. I went with it cause I cared for her and after a while I spoke up and that started our arguments and me being upset and lashing out that we are not progressing at all. I remember the first time we saw eachother again. It was the first game of the mets in the World Series. That was well over 7 months ago. And our progres was the same shi* as before. She wouldn't be affectionate and loving and compliment me once. I helped her out with bills and got her stuff and sent flowers to her job and nothing ever helped. Maybe I was trying to buy my way. We weren't Intimite once or did anything beside going to a bar. I would always pay for dinner and alway the bar. She wouldn't even offer once. Felt so used and other day I just got enraged and lashed out on text and couldn't take it anymore. All I did was never good Enough and I was used and never really liked by her probably. Was only a drinking buddy and free ride. It's so hard to move forward. I miss her all the time. I get upset at work and depressed my whole Day and night. I never thought she would do that to me but I guess love is blind as they say.
mmmike Posted May 13, 2016 Posted May 13, 2016 Hi everyone, Been a while since I came on here to catch up or post any new threads. This site always helped me cope when I was going through a separation from my ex fiancé which is well over a year ago now. Actually found out she had a new baby and is married now. I was seeing this girl about last summer. I never really though i would Meet anyone for a while after my ex but she came in and I truly liked someone else again. As soon as she got in my car I loved her beauty and smile and it made me happy she was there. All things were good we talked deeply about personal things and she let me in on her past drug abuse problem. We were Intimite and together. I am not a secure person and actually I am very self conscious about myself because I sustained a burn scar on my face when I was a baby and never really accepted it. All my reassurances I kept asking her pushed her away and she left. Really was depressed and sad for months. Then here and there we talked a little and eventually hung out and it was never the same as first time. She told Me we needed to build a foundation and not rush it like the first time. So as we were hanging out, I realized she always wanted to go to the bar and drink and not want to do anything else. I went with it cause I cared for her and after a while I spoke up and that started our arguments and me being upset and lashing out that we are not progressing at all. I remember the first time we saw eachother again. It was the first game of the mets in the World Series. That was well over 7 months ago. And our progres was the same shi* as before. She wouldn't be affectionate and loving and compliment me once. I helped her out with bills and got her stuff and sent flowers to her job and nothing ever helped. Maybe I was trying to buy my way. We weren't Intimite once or did anything beside going to a bar. I would always pay for dinner and alway the bar. She wouldn't even offer once. Felt so used and other day I just got enraged and lashed out on text and couldn't take it anymore. All I did was never good Enough and I was used and never really liked by her probably. Was only a drinking buddy and free ride. It's so hard to move forward. I miss her all the time. I get upset at work and depressed my whole Day and night. I never thought she would do that to me but I guess love is blind as they say. Don't feel too bad. We've all been there. My ex left me, then met a rebound, then left the rebound to come back to me, then left me for the same rebound and now they're together and I'm alone. It hurts a ton but I hope one day to meet someone amazing. I'm not really ready. I still have to heal. Don't feel too self conscious about a scar on your face. Whether a scar, or a broken nose, women find things like that on men to be rugged and sexy. You will meet the right kind of lady one day. I tell myself the same thing too all the time. In the mean time, get a hobby, get out of the house, heal. It's hard for me too because I'm not working and my friends are on vacation and so I'm alone right now. But everyday I get out of the house just to walk and just be near people even if they're strangers. Just heal and keep yourself busy. Good luck 1
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