Fell for a guy & he broke my heart. My stages of mourning

May 3, 2016

I (female, 26) dated a man (23) who told me early on that he had Asbergers but I didn't care. I liked him for who he was and dated him anyway, being kind, understanding, supportive and everything. I even accepted things that I shouldnt have even put up with but did anyway for HIS ****ing comfort. I did everything I could just to make HIM happy. He told me I was amazing and wonderful, looked at me with love in his eyes, said sweet things to me. I really believed him. How can you fake a loving look in your eyes? We had great times together. Then he ****ing switched up randomly and told me I don't understand him, then broke up with me. I was confused. Dont understand you? He said Because when he talks he feels like he's speaking gibberish and like he is dumb, and somehow it was MY fault. Like as if I was making him feel that way. I was ****ing blindsided and dumbfounded. Huh?? Somehow, his communication issues, something he had way before he ever met me, was my fault. And that, warrants not wanting me anymore. He even brought up that I made him feel dumb about his communication during old conversations when I didnt even know we were having communication issues during said old conversations. He never told me then. He kept dating me and sweet talking to me and being sexual with me. It was news to me the moment he broke up with me that we were having communication issues. It's like he created stories in his head. I refuse to believe that he was a coward and wanted an excuse to end things. He really believed what he was saying. He brought up old conversations we had and said that during the conversation, he "kept trying to make a point and I wasnt getting it, the convo just kept on going". This never. Happened. I remember having a normal conversation with him, and never once did I suspect that he felt he wasnt being understood, or that he was making a point that wasnt transferring. I never caught onto this. I did not remember him trying to make a point that I didnt understand. So basically, he breaks up with me over things he imagined in his head, over his own insecurities about his lack of communication skills, but painted it as ME not understanding HIM. I hate selfish, self-absorbed people like that, that only think of themselves and make themselves the victim, and blame their issues on the other person. I will never date a man with a developmental disorder ever again. If you are so insecure with yourself that you blame your issues on the other person, stay out of relationships and go get therapy. Dont date a woman and bring her into your unstable world. Dont lead her on, then break up with her randomly over something that didnt even happen, but in your own insecure mind. I'm a human being and he was cruel and evil to ****ing lead me on and then be reckless with my heart. What a selfish ******* he turned out to be. He didnt have ANY feeling whatsoever for me, when I cried and told him how confused I was, when I told him I wanted to be with him. He was cold and all he kept talking about was HIM. I have been hurt before but never experienced something so unnecessary and blindsided. It came out of nowhere. He did a complete change up. Im still confused about what the hell happened and why. He hurt me and he didnt even give a ****. I hope karma bites him in the ****ing ass.

Mourning stages of grief: https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/inside-out/201309/the-5-stages-grieving-the-end-relationship

My current mourning stage is anger (I already bargained when that dick had me drive to his place in hopes of working things out, just to be greeted with a break up). ****ing POS. The next one will be depression and then acceptance.

At the end of article it says, during the anger stage you send an email to the ex just so they wont think they got away with anything. 2 days after the breakup, I sent him a long angry message basically telling him he is evil and a liar and user and that he has mental issues. I hate him, although I didnt say that part. I felt better but what does he care? He imagined the entire relationship just like he imagined the conversation/story he used as an excused to break up with me. Idk what was real in his mind anymore. So now I am lonely and hurting and suffering alone. Because of his unstable ass, I get to suffer in pain alone now. Idk how long this anger stage will last. I hope I make it to depression soon. The closer to acceptance the better.

Edited May 3, 2016 by tiredofwasting

May 3, 2016

Hi,

Wow, you are very angry !

You know he has Asperger's syndrome ... although highly functioning in certain aspects but low functioning in social aspects of life. Do you think that he might misunderstood your non-verbal communication towards him and that what caused him thinking inferior to you at times ??

I have a feeling that he truly meant being happy with you most of the times but maybe misinterpreted your signals towards him due to his condition. (?)

Please don't tell him that he is evil, he has a serious not up to par social condition that he cannot do anything about ... he is also VERY young , it said that guys are emotionally immature before the age of 26

Please don't be an ill-wisher (karma)....it's a reflection on you not on him.

Your ego got hurt being rejected and it makes you mad. It is completely normal to feel this way, we have all been here, you are not alone. Everyone is grieving differently, though. The way you handle it, says a lot about you.

Do you really want anything bad to happen to him ? I hope not.

Take the high road, be gracious and classy. Start focusing and bettering yourself.

I understand that you are hurting, it will take some time to move forward and accept what happened.

Edited May 3, 2016 by Captivating

May 3, 2016

A reflection of me? I know I'm a really good person. And I showed it. But that didnt matter. He still ****ed me over, over stories he imagined in his head. But he gets to have an easy out because of his condition. But if I react to being hurt and ****ed over, I'm a bad person. Ok.

And by karma, I mean I hope he gets back what he gave to me. There's nothing wrong for me feeling that way. It's normal, and that's how life should work anyway. If life worked that way maybe people wouldnt **** over others and then not give a **** after.

And it's not just ego. I believed the look of love in his eyes. I believed the sweet words he said to me. I had dreams of us being together and doing different things together. Then he changed randomly and treated me like **** Thursday. He made me feel like garbage. I'd say that's hardly ego.

May 3, 2016

I know what you meant by karma. So you want eye for an eye as a solution.

Would that really make you happy ? Would this make you a better person ?

Do you hear yourself ???

Soul searching, self-reflection and practicing compassion would be a great start.

May 3, 2016

I know what you meant by karma. So you want eye for an eye as a solution.
Would that really make you happy ? Would this make you a better person ?
Do you hear yourself ???
Soul searching, self-reflection and practicing compassion would be a great start.

PRACTICING COMPASSION??? ARE YOU ****ING KIDDING ME??? I WAS VERY COMPASSIONATE TO HIM. I WAS EVERY BIT OF COMPASSIONATE FOR HIM AND SACRIFICED MY OWN COMFORT JUST SO HE COULD FEEL UNDERSTOOD, HAPPY AND COMFORTABLE. DONT TELL ME TO BE COMPASSIONATE BECAUSE YOU DO NOT KNOW ME. I'm a VERY compassionate person.

YOU are not helping. YOU can GO now.

May 3, 2016

****ing unbelievable. I'm the ****ing victim and you're telling me I'm the one that needs to feel compassion. FOR ****ING WHAT??? I NEED TO UNDERSTAND AND FEEL COMPASSION FOR HIM ****ING ME OVER FOR NO REASON AND USING AND LYING TO ME ALL THAT TIME? Why would you tell me that? Would you tell me I deserved that? Really? I deserved it? deserved to be treated that way? And I should feel compassion for HIM after what he did? WHY???

You are clearly biased and have your own agenda. Bye.

May 3, 2016

I understand how you feel...and it's ok to feel that way. I've been cheated on twice now by women who proclaimed their love for me, etc. even the day before breaking up with me. What I've found that helps is being angry enough to force even more positive changes into my life. Don't dwell to the point of getting stuck.

People can be pure crap sometimes. And it does suck. But make sure to use this anger for your own good. The only real way to come out on top is to improve your life to the point of indifference towards your ex. He no longer matters except as an example of the type of person you will never want a relationship with. Manipulative people can create this storybook life that sounds amazing and then snatch it away in a heartbeat. Never get so invested in someone that you don't remind yourself that they could be gone and done the next minute. I wish you the best in healing. It will still hurt once you accept it, but understand that they lost out on you...not the other way around.

May 3, 2016

How did he ".... you over" ? He WALKED AWAY from a relationship with you.

He didn't see you guys being compatible.

Most people here are sad about a news like that, want to rekindle things and upset how things ended ... I've never seen a person up here with so much hate and anger towards someone they supposed to LOVE.

I read your post from an earlier thread of yours, same thing.

I definitely see a pattern here.

YOU CAME UP HERE TO SHARE YOUR "HEARTACHE", DON'T BE UPSET IF OTHER'S OPINIONS ARE NOT THE SAME AS YOURS. DON'T TELL ME "TO GO NOW" ! WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE ?? You sound like a bossy brat.

I think this is what happening....you are longing for love and acceptance like most of us..... you are bending backwards for someone....they sense that something is not right....they pull away ....and you lash out, calling them names and just generally being mean spirited.

It keeps happening again and again and again....

MAYBE start being genuinely nice, accept people how they are....

STOP BLAMING EVERYONE ELSE AND OWN UP TO YOUR OWN STUFF !

What is your role in the current situation ??? And the situations before ?

If you want change, BE THE CHANGE !

Have a great night !

May 3, 2016

How did he ".... you over" ? He WALKED AWAY from a relationship with you.
He didn't see you guys being compatible.

Most people here are sad about a news like that, want to rekindle things and upset how things ended ... I've never seen a person up here with so much hate and anger towards someone they supposed to LOVE.

I read your post from an earlier thread of yours, same thing.
I definitely see a pattern here.

YOU CAME UP HERE TO SHARE YOUR "HEARTACHE", DON'T BE UPSET IF OTHER'S OPINIONS ARE NOT THE SAME AS YOURS. DON'T TELL ME "TO GO NOW" ! WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE ?? You sound like a bossy brat.

I think this is what happening....you are longing for love and acceptance like most of us..... you are bending backwards for someone....they sense that something is not right....they pull away ....and you lash out, calling them names and just generally being mean spirited.
It keeps happening again and again and again....

MAYBE start being genuinely nice, accept people how they are....

STOP BLAMING EVERYONE ELSE AND OWN UP TO YOUR OWN STUFF !
What is your role in the current situation ??? And the situations before ?
If you want change, BE THE CHANGE !

Have a great night !

Nothing you said is true. I am a genuinely nice person. And you don't know what happened in the relationship. Now you are just attacking me and insulting me and making up horrible accusations about me as a person and about my character. I did nothing for you to even assume that I am not genuine in my relationships. That came way out of left field. You are evil. I'm blocking you now.

May 3, 2016

I'm confused - how did he imply that the communication issues were your fault? All I'm getting is that the felt that the communication wasn't bringing out his best so he walked away.

I can understand your disappointment, but your anger is OTT. And telling him that he's evil and a liar was appalling on your part. He's mostly likely insecure and confused. And the insecurity is a normal thing for aspies aster a lifetime of being misunderstood.

Do you usually experience this level of vitriol when someone ends a relationship with you?

May 3, 2016

I understand how you feel...and it's ok to feel that way. I've been cheated on twice now by women who proclaimed their love for me, etc. even the day before breaking up with me. What I've found that helps is being angry enough to force even more positive changes into my life. Don't dwell to the point of getting stuck.

People can be pure crap sometimes. And it does suck. But make sure to use this anger for your own good. The only real way to come out on top is to improve your life to the point of indifference towards your ex. He no longer matters except as an example of the type of person you will never want a relationship with. Manipulative people can create this storybook life that sounds amazing and then snatch it away in a heartbeat. Never get so invested in someone that you don't remind yourself that they could be gone and done the next minute. I wish you the best in healing. It will still hurt once you accept it, but understand that they lost out on you...not the other way around.

Thank you very much for your words. That dumb girl told me I am mean-spirited and in-genuine because I am angry at what he did. She said I am not genuinely nice in my relationships and that I am the cause of why men dont want to be with me. Did I say or do anything to deserve a comment like that? Besides be angry and hurt at the way he treated me? Because I am angry and hurt, I am all these horrible things? She is so evil to say that to me and she doesnt even know me, doesnt know why the relationship ended, doesnt know the man or if I'm "genuine" or not, or anything. Then she says people here deserve good advice and comfort, but that I am different and dont deserve any. What a god awful evil person she is.

May 3, 2016

Your words define you. Everything you say is appalling ... where is all that anger coming from ? Why are you so angry?

You need therapy.

May 3, 2016

Basil,

You dont understand because you werent there or in the relationship. You dont know all the details or know what he put me through that day. I was a ****ing wreck that day. He did lie. How about you ask me WHAT he lied about, or why I felt he lied, instead of telling me I am appalling for it? And it's not about "ending a relationship". It isn't that simple. Did you even read the post? Clearly in the post, I am not mad about "the ending of a relationship". I wrote a lot in that post and poured my heart out.

May 3, 2016

How can you fake a loving look in your eyes?

He might not have faked it at the time, or ever. Love is such a thing, that many think they feel it and don't realize its not love.

He said Because when he talks he feels like he's speaking gibberish and like he is dumb, and somehow it was MY fault.

Did he say specifically it was your fault? What I am getting from this statement is that he is not comfortable with himself and he wanted to let you go so he can work on himself.

He even brought up that I made him feel dumb about his communication during old conversations when I didnt even know we were having communication issues during said old conversations. He never told me then.

This isnt your fault, some guys have this thing where they dont wanna talk about issues.. they'll drop bad "hints" and hope you get it, instead of telling you straight up. Ive been there too. He lacked telling you what was wrong and let it all boil up in him until he found it necessary to end it with you.

I will never date a man with a developmental disorder ever again.

This is your own free choice, but to say this is like saying all people with some sort of disability are like this.. this is a isolated situation and you shouldn't blame one group of people for one individuals mistakes.

All in all, I think the thing that lacked the most in your situation is communication. I think he didnt wanna communicate when problems arose and that lead to the downfall. I suspect that he wasn't initially trying to hurt you with the beak up, maybe he was just trying to let you go because he saw it wasnt working and he wanted to also work on himself more.

The stages of a break up are hard to go through, once you get past your anger towards him, you will begin to see that he wasnt an evil person, he was just... a person. We all have flaws and some things arent meant to be. Its hard to understand now, but once you get closer to that acceptance stage you will begin to see his side of things and begin to heal and even forgive sometmes.

May 3, 2016

Miss A thank you for your response, and yes. He said that "I" dont understand him. Because of how badly he communicates. And he got mad again and said he was trying to make a point over and over in an old convo and that I didnt get it (when that's not what was going on in the convo at all).

May 3, 2016

It does not sound like you are going through the anger stage. It sounds like you are experiencing rage.

I even accepted things that I shouldnt have even put up with but did anyway for HIS ****ing comfort.

I WAS EVERY BIT OF COMPASSIONATE FOR HIM AND SACRIFICED MY OWN COMFORT JUST SO HE COULD FEEL UNDERSTOOD, HAPPY AND COMFORTABLE.

There's something in this... like you over-exerted yourself at the expense of this other person. That is not healthy. Maybe you were compassionate, in a way, to that person, but not to yourself.

May 3, 2016

Miss A thank you for your response, and yes. He said that "I" dont understand him. Because of how badly he communicates. And he got mad again and said he was trying to make a point over and over in an old convo and that I didnt get it (when that's not what was going on in the convo at all).

Hmm.. yes it looks like he failed to communicate effectively what he was feeling. Which is a pity indeed. I know this makes your angry and I hope that brings you one step closer to acceptance.

My suggestion or now is to take time for yourself. Explore new things and meet new people. By this I mean, don't seek out a new relationship. Meet more people so you can find out what youre really looking for in a partner. You already know you want someone who communicates when things get tough, so find more qualities you are looking for. It will make picking the next guy a little easier. Become friends with a person first, so that you build a strong communication with them and a solid foundation.. that way you know their flaws and you truly know them before giving that part of yourself to them.

best of luck.

May 3, 2016

I did read the post and I simply can't equate his actions to the level of rage you're experiencing. Yes it's crap when a relationship ends but I still can't see where he blamed you. I think he had issues with himself and when he realized that he wasn't going to overcome them he let you go. It's quite normal to stay in a relationship while we consider whether or not to stay or go.

As far as the appalling words goes, I was mostly referring to you calling him evil. There is no evil in anything you've described. Tell us how he lied to you.

Also, do you always experience this level of rage of you are dumped?

May 3, 2016

I went through something very similar. I am also in my mid-20s, and dated a guy a couple of years younger than me for a while (whom I'm pretty sure had mild asperger's--unconfirmed but a lot of the signs; other people also commented on it). In my head the only problem was his age (and therefore potential for emotional immaturity)--other than that he was sweet, loving, loyal, planning for the future, etc. However he was absolutely terrible at communicating -- and if there was some disagreement over something he would switch off like a light (once he did out for 6 weeks straight..). Eventually I ended it because I didn't want him to do that again..but then he seemed so apologetic I wanted to take him back..too late, he'd already 'developed feelings' for another girl. He then spent 3 months telling me how confused he felt about all these 'feelings' for two girls (and blaming me for allowing it), before leaving me high and dry; later that girl dumped him too..and ever since he's been leaning on me for emotional support and initiating fwb situations, while resolutely stating that he won't commit to me in any exclusive way because he's been so emotionally 'hurt' in the past. TBH I think I'm giving him a bit of a pass by wondering if he has a developmental problem.. he might just be an incredibly selfish immature ----.

Point is though, there isn't really an excuse. If he has a disorder then that's never going to go away and will always be incredibly difficult to deal with. If he's a ---- then that won't change either. if he's 23 it'll still be years before he wants to commit.. I'm sure he did care about you genuinely at some point but guys that age are FICKLE. They think they want someone to be emotional/physical with and get all mushy/serious but then realise they don't want to be tied down. I've seen so many serious (seeming) couples at that age where the girl wanted to make it last and, once they left university or the guy realised he needed to figure out his job or whatever, bam, the guy dumped them. It's illogical--it's not like the guy usually has anyone serious lined up, the girl would've made a great wife 5 years from now--but the guy can't see that right now. It's like all the wisdom/foresight he initially had has vanished out the window. It's his loss--I have no doubt they'll all, at least subconsciously, regret it.

I get it, it really hurts. It makes you lose your faith and trust to be betrayed. It embarrasses me that I wasted my time on this ex, that I let myself trust him, both during and after our relationship, thinking it might go somewhere. (I also have guilt mixed in for dumping him initially.) It seemed like a really sensible (and really enjoyable) relationship. Even now, when he tries to use me for fwb, he'll trick me by telling me how much he cares about me and wants to reconcile and all this personal crap.. he did this for a few months recently, I caved and let him come visit so we could talk/whatever, and after that night (which he spent getting so emotional and personal, it really felt like we were back in our relationship) he literally just looked at his watch in the morning, said 'crap it's late' and left. It really stung and felt like I'd backslid three years.

I've lashed out at this ex more times than I care to admit (also sent him an angry email recently!) But YOU CAN'T WIN THIS WAY. My ex gets on such a high horse when I get mad--he could cheat on me, but if I got mad, suddenly I was the one apologising and in the wrong. The best revenge I got on my ex was unintentional--it was being more successful than him. Ofc, it means he never wants to get back together now (ego problems), but I could tell it stung, he couldn't stop referencing it. And it introduced me to a whole new group of people and possibilities, which was great. Now, while I still get hurt by my ex, I feel much more almost pityingly indifferent towards him, because I know that even when I fall down that rabbit hole I have something else to go back to. My ex also used to be really good at upsetting me by going cold and pulling away -- I don't know if you're capable of this but it works too.

If you need to send him an email make sure it's cold and to the point..just imagine reading it yourself, would you really feel hurt if someone sent you loads of expletives? No, you'd feel annoyed and maybe scorn them for lacking control. If someone sent you an email pointing out your flaws and how they had moved on because you were too difficult to love? Yeah that might sting more.. esp if he gets lonely and then realises he can't just fall back on you again. If you do that, ok, but then drop contact.

Your rage is really OTT though..channel it into something more productive. Distract yourself with friends, exercise, organise, cook, read something to give you perspective (honestly after this ex used me again, I stumbled on an article about a young boy whose body was rejecting an organ transplant.. the whole article was about rejection--what the body had done and the consequences, and wow did I feel like a massive prat for whining about my 'rejection'). Talk to some girlfriends--every girl has a crap story (or ten). Talk to guy friends--they'll know immediately how badly he's acting and will usually shake their heads or something semi-comforting like that. But stop being so angry!!

May 3, 2016

I don't see where he lied - can you clarify, OP?

Yes, being dumped hurts. But you need to find a better way to channel that rage. It's simply disproportionate and you're only hurting yourself in the end. Lashing out on a random internet forum obviously isn't helping, either.

In the past, how have you reacted to the end of relationships? That is what you can focus on. If you are always this enraged, there's something deeper going on. The guy who broke up with you is only part of the equation.

Take this time to yourself now. Focus on setting new objectives for you, that have nothing to do with men. This guy wasn't The One, and that's okay. It means there is someone better-suited to you out there.

May 3, 2016

Basil,
You dont understand because you werent there or in the relationship. You dont know all the details or know what he put me through that day. I was a ****ing wreck that day. He did lie. How about you ask me WHAT he lied about, or why I felt he lied, instead of telling me I am appalling for it? And it's not about "ending a relationship". It isn't that simple. Did you even read the post? Clearly in the post, I am not mad about "the ending of a relationship". I wrote a lot in that post and poured my heart out.

Those who are not contradicting you weren't there either and I don't see you calling names. If you want us to know what the full picture is like, then tell us more instead of starting shooting randomly.

You should calm down, really. The guy has Asperger's. The fact that there's a perceived lack of communication is the least you could expect. Calling him evil doesn't speak about a very sympathetic person, if you ask me. The only thing you'll get by doing that is him never speaking to you again. And for a reason.

Edited May 3, 2016 by keiji

May 3, 2016

I (female, 26) dated a man (23) who told me early on that he had Asbergers but I didn't care. I liked him for who he was and dated him anyway, being kind, understanding, supportive and everything. I even accepted things that I shouldnt have even put up with but did anyway for HIS ****ing comfort. I did everything I could just to make HIM happy. He told me I was amazing and wonderful, looked at me with love in his eyes, said sweet things to me. I really believed him. How can you fake a loving look in your eyes? We had great times together. Then he ****ing switched up randomly and told me I don't understand him, then broke up with me. I was confused. Dont understand you? He said Because when he talks he feels like he's speaking gibberish and like he is dumb, and somehow it was MY fault. Like as if I was making him feel that way. I was ****ing blindsided and dumbfounded. Huh?? Somehow, his communication issues, something he had way before he ever met me, was my fault. And that, warrants not wanting me anymore. He even brought up that I made him feel dumb about his communication during old conversations when I didnt even know we were having communication issues during said old conversations. He never told me then. He kept dating me and sweet talking to me and being sexual with me. It was news to me the moment he broke up with me that we were having communication issues. It's like he created stories in his head. I refuse to believe that he was a coward and wanted an excuse to end things. He really believed what he was saying. He brought up old conversations we had and said that during the conversation, he "kept trying to make a point and I wasnt getting it, the convo just kept on going". This never. Happened. I remember having a normal conversation with him, and never once did I suspect that he felt he wasnt being understood, or that he was making a point that wasnt transferring. I never caught onto this. I did not remember him trying to make a point that I didnt understand. So basically, he breaks up with me over things he imagined in his head, over his own insecurities about his lack of communication skills, but painted it as ME not understanding HIM. I hate selfish, self-absorbed people like that, that only think of themselves and make themselves the victim, and blame their issues on the other person. I will never date a man with a developmental disorder ever again. If you are so insecure with yourself that you blame your issues on the other person, stay out of relationships and go get therapy. Dont date a woman and bring her into your unstable world. Dont lead her on, then break up with her randomly over something that didnt even happen, but in your own insecure mind. I'm a human being and he was cruel and evil to ****ing lead me on and then be reckless with my heart. What a selfish ******* he turned out to be. He didnt have ANY feeling whatsoever for me, when I cried and told him how confused I was, when I told him I wanted to be with him. He was cold and all he kept talking about was HIM. I have been hurt before but never experienced something so unnecessary and blindsided. It came out of nowhere. He did a complete change up. Im still confused about what the hell happened and why. He hurt me and he didnt even give a ****. I hope karma bites him in the ****ing ass.

Mourning stages of grief: https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/inside-out/201309/the-5-stages-grieving-the-end-relationship

My current mourning stage is anger (I already bargained when that dick had me drive to his place in hopes of working things out, just to be greeted with a break up). ****ing POS. The next one will be depression and then acceptance.

At the end of article it says, during the anger stage you send an email to the ex just so they wont think they got away with anything. 2 days after the breakup, I sent him a long angry message basically telling him he is evil and a liar and user and that he has mental issues. I hate him, although I didnt say that part. I felt better but what does he care? He imagined the entire relationship just like he imagined the conversation/story he used as an excused to break up with me. Idk what was real in his mind anymore. So now I am lonely and hurting and suffering alone. Because of his unstable ass, I get to suffer in pain alone now. Idk how long this anger stage will last. I hope I make it to depression soon. The closer to acceptance the better.

I'll start by saying I understand how much it sucks when a relationship abruptly ends and you feel blindsided, hurt, betrayed. Just remember that you're not the first person to go through it and eventually it gets better.

I also have no agenda whatsoever because I've never beg you, your BF, at.

So as. far as what my observations are from your replies, just remember it's not personal and none of the other users here have anything against you.

That being said... You are very quick to snap at people who say anything which you don't agree with or take as criticism.

Of course those of us reading your thread are only getting the small bits and pieces of what you write here. However , even reading the small details of the relationship, we can see that you willingly got into the relationship with him after he told you about his asperger syndrome and warned you that it's not easy to deal with and messes with his way of acting, thinking, etc.

Sry to be blunt but it's a bit immature and selfish on your part to place all the Blame on your BF who has Aspergers. It's common sense to know that people in his condition will have certain stretches where they just can't be as logical and in control as they normally are. For someone who is 26, you should be the one who doesn't blow it out of proportion.

Just because you start dating someone... That doesn't mean they will automatically love you forever and their feelings can't change or change what they wanna do in life.

Did you have a middle school or High school BF? ? If you did then did you flip out on them as wel

I think you are more offended than anything but also thing think you should reflect on how you did everything to appease him and make him happy.

N

May 3, 2016

What he did to me was evil. I didnt even say the whole story. There were specific things he did to me the day he ended it that imo, were evil. And I dont care if he ever speaks to me again. I will never speak to him again so why do I care that he never speaks to me again? Especially after what he did. After he ended things (before I sent him anything) he wasn't ever gonna speak to me again anyway, which is also evil, to use someone and then throw them away and act like you dont know them after. You damn right I sent an email. And it was all factual and direct. I gave him specific examples of what he did that was evil. I love how everyone is taking his side and you dont even know him, me or what happened.

I never flip on out on anyone I date. I keep it all inside and express it in my journals or post my feelings online. When I write online I am unfiltered as far as my anger goes. Because it's online, so who cares. I can be as honest as I want.

To those saying I shouldnt be as mad, you wouldnt know and do not know what I am feeling and why, cause you are not in my head, in my heart, and you werent in the relationship or inside me during that day when he treated me like ****. You have no idea of anything I'm saying and anything I went through. And you cannot say I'm only offended. You have no idea what I am experiencing inside so dont tell me what I am feeling. I think I know what I am feeling.

May 3, 2016

Nobody's judging you, I think. We're just giving you our opinion based on the information you've given us, it's as simple as that. If your answer is invariably "you know nothing about me", it's going to be a bit difficult for you to get help. Unless it's not help that you're looking for, but unconditional support.

May 3, 2016

Nobody's judging you, I think. We're just giving you our opinion based on the information you've given us, it's as simple as that. If your answer is invariably "you know nothing about me", it's going to be a bit difficult for you to get help. Unless it's not help that you're looking for, but unconditional support.

Nothing I said in my original post warranted any of the attacks and insults on me. And I dont see how anyone can read the original post and not see that that too, is ****ed up on his part. I dont see how reading the original post can make someone feel for him when I am the victim, clearly. I also dont see how reading the original post makes people say I dont deserve support like others in this forum, that I am genuinely not kind in my relationships, that I am not compassionate and all these other attacks.

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