Hurts

[Pumpingiron34]

Honestly the fact I'm even here hurts and never did I think I'd be on a websight writing about my relationship. Talking to people just makes me feel better. So here we go. I met a girl at 17 she was 16 fell madly in love after the first time hanging out. Madly dident leave each other sides for so long. Time goes on two years in reality kicks in we have alot of battles and what not but we manage to work things out. 3 years go by we are still pretty in love but there are common problems. Things like I dont buy her stuff I don't do this and that. Which started becomming delusions and no matter what I bought her,I still dident buy her stuff. The unappretiaion made me give up buying her anything. Now we are going on to our fifth year together we still hang out every night but then things go south. I become a "piece of ****" mostly for those same apparent problems but this time mainly because I do not feel like going out to bars and clubs and drinking every night. This started when she turned 21 me now 22. I don't enjoy going to these environments but once in awhile i don't mind it im a compromiser. Now it really hits south I start being compared to others boyfriends for what I do and don't. We stop haveing sex for weeks and I have to beg if we do. Then it becomes I pester her for sex. Which yea once a week was getting pretty tough or at least once a week. So she gets a boob job says I'm treating her nasty not taking care of her after surgery. 6 days ago I tell her don't come over tonight she's got a mean attitude towards me. She blocks me every where out of her life. I finally get in contact and she says I don't love you any more. I cry and begged for another chance to change and she says I'm just not in love with you. I cry more and she says it's gross I'm crying. Tells me to forget the five years exsisted. Now I'm so destroyed the person who was my best friend every day said this to me. To make it worse it was my first relationship ever first kiss. Had a cruise paid for in july I am crushed on another level. I'm not even sure if I'm real it hurts so bad. My house feels haunted with memories. To make in worse she's in one of my college classes and I have to see her four more times. And give a speech in front of the class with my heart ripped to shreds. I might of been no angel some times but after five years to be so cold I would never with my heart be capable of saying such mean things. Dam

[Michaelroyale]

Hi there don't dispair I've gone through some thing similar but did everything wrong..your behaviour as over time as caused her to fall out of love with you.you don't realise what's going on until you get the I love you but not in love with you chat...so what to do first you've got to man up grow a pair and stop contacting her.stop pleading with her and looking needy I know it's very hard and difficult but you must do it no contact will help..The more you chase her the quicker she's going to run from you...give her space to get her emotions sorted out she will be hurting to...so remember be strong and work on yourself get your emotions in check work out and generally look after yourself this you must do...I did the complete opposite and totally blew it I wish id had this knowledge back then...best of luck...