3 months since we broke up but i still feel awful

[Josh12543]

We had been together around 7 months and i adored her, she meant everything to me but not going to lie it was rocky we had our fair share of arguments but never other anything major. She dumped me which was completely unexpected and it just fell from there loads of tears and shouting from both of us she left my house and ive not seen her since in 3 months. (She lives a 10 minute walk from my house) over text that night it was alot of just me begging her to not do this. She texted me the next day asking me how i was and it seemed okay but it was just awkward and the conversation slowly started to end. I just thought there is no way she can just end it like this she loves me, i know she does is all i would say to myself. I gave her space we had no contact for about a month at which point i broke it and just asked if she was okay and went over how it all went wrong. But this just made it worse for me, i still had her on social networks and she would always favourite things about 'missing someone' and typical lovey tumblr crap that gave me false hope she still loved me. On text she threatened to block my number. At which point i sort of gave up i didnt message her for a while i was just making things worse. I know alot of you will just say well time to move on she obviously doesnt want you but i couldnt understand how just because we had a rocky relationship that just made her want to block me out of her life. It seems like i was just nothing to her i couldnt understand how she could move on so fast. Fast forward to now ive been blocked on every social media, my number, whatsapp for no reason ive said nothing to her. She has a new boyfriend and has called me a creep and a psycho over from what my friends have screenshotted off her twitter. It has really knocked me for six, how a girl i poured my heart out too, spoilt and loved has just forgotten about me completly. Sad thing aswell she was beautiful and genuinely my best friend for a while she was such a nice girl who helped me through alot of tough times how i lve just been swept under the rug is really painful. So yeah i still miss her, id never want to get back with her too much damage has been done, i feel pathetic for not moving on in 3 months. My biggest issue aswell is that i left college whilst we were together, i work full time now so i barely see any of my friends, i'll see some during the weekend but i literally see no-one during the week. I feel out with two of my best friends at the start of the year and only see one other person from our group who has also fallen out with them. So having my girlfriend around helped me get through the fact i didnt see friends as much anymore and social life is what i live for i hate being stuck indoors. Now i feel like i have nothing. Since breaking up with her everything feels like its all gone wrong. I see people putting up snapchat stories which she is involved in and just seeing the comments on some of her new boyfriends instagram photos just make me jealous and feel ill. Im sick of feeling like this i know i have to move on but every day i get constant reminders of when we were together, songs, places were we have sat, just everything seems to be about love and breakups everywhere i turn so im finding it impossible to move on. Ive suffered with depression all my life and i was fine for about a year and the months i was with her but since the breakup everything just feels hopeless, i see no friends, have no-one to talk to, getting into bed by myself every night alone whilst knowing she is sleeping next to someone else is proving hard to swallow. I just need some advice, anything.

[PegNosePete]

You need to block her and all her friends from these social media sites. They are holding you back. The less you see of her, the better. Including second-hand or third-hand from other people's posts.

 

Sorry to say, and you already know this, but the relationship is clearly over. You need to go NC in order to heal and recover.

[Josh12543]

I agree with this but she still goes to the college i went to, her friends, be them boys or girls are my friends aswell, blocking them would just cause more drama. Im not upset that the relationship has ended if she wasnt happy i cannot stop her i just cant understand how ive been removed from her life and treated like i was nothing. Being blocked on everything when you have done nothing wrong hurts. Thanks

[Nickr3023]

She's blocking you for herself and indirectly for you too. You cut off ties to everyone that you have to until you feel better. Your true friends will understand, the ones that don't, do they really matter?