Will she come back?

[muzik]

hello

 

here is my story in brief…

 

I met her before 7 years in a music class. She is a singer and i am a poet & guitarist. In first month i found she was suffering from many troubles. She was crying-weeping whole the day, impulsive, moody, lazy, day-dreaming, doing nothing, earning nothing etc and she confessed that she was trapped in a love with a married man 10 years older than her. I found her in depression so i took her to psychiatric and there she was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder.

 

Later I came to know that she has a traumatized childhood, many abuses, failed early teenage relationships, early age abortions, rape, one night stands, drug & porn addiction, too many males in life, uncontrolled sexuality etc. It is very rare in the country i live. And no body in her family or friend circle knew all these. so she was suffering of hyper mood swings, guilt, emotional turmoil etc. Somehow i fell in love with her at this stage. This was my first experience with love, i was 33 at that time. And i started taking care of her day & night nourishing her to vanish out her past and stabilizing her in normal life & towards her singing career.

 

All these took tremendous efforts from my side. Physical-mental-emotional- economical dedication to nourish her wounds. A sort of devotion. And months by months she started to improve. She didnt like me that way, I mean she said our body-chemistry doesn’t match, i don’t like your type of man. Though it didnt matter for me, so i continued to take care of her and try my best to bring back her to normal life. Then she was diagnosed with ADHD – Attention Deficit Hyper Activity Disorder. For all 7 years i took her to doctor, took care that she take medicines properly and get the proper therapy. Her family was unknown of this, as she couldnt tell her past to her parents.

 

Later before 3 years, she fell in love with me. She wrote me love letter and then we united as a couple and had physical relations. During whole period, she asked many favors from me, to do her personal works, to do her social works, to do her career related works, to help his father in his business, to help her mother and brothers…etc. I did it all. Somehow her family was quite reluctant to me. They never gave me any respect or credit for the hard work i did for them. Anyway i didnt care as far as she loves me and i was doing all for her happiness.

 

After taking medicines, proper therapy and full support from me, later she started to improve. Then before one and half year, she participated in a national level reality show at a city – 500 km from our city. She was selected and later she got some offers of shows across country and some recordings at Movies. So she started to live there. We were in touch daily through phone-email etc and talked much everyday. She cam to my city every month. Then she got some fame, some money etc. And just after six months she got attracted towards a handsome boy of 24. Her age is 32 and mine is 40 at present. This was romantic-passionate love as she declared a month before. He was like her dream man etc. She hide all these from me. She went to live-in his new boyfriend’s house. While taking all emotional-financial-career support from me, she was having her romantic-physical needs fulfilled by that boy. She consummated two man for one year telling lie to both.

 

Just in last month, there was a marriage of her brother. And she came there with her new boyfriend. It was a three days ceremony. They both were roaming together for whole time. She didnt even attended me, of talked with me for 10 minutes. I was totally devastated and in shock. After the marriage she declared “I don’t love you anymore. Your love was like nourishing – altruistic and this one is romantic. And I prefer romance and passion more. I am living-in with my new boyfriend since an year. But I wish you still be my friend and support me for my career growth!!! ” There was no guilt/shame/sorry on her face at all. Its horrified shocking situation for me. Though somehow I controlled myself, and talked calmly with her to know her mental situation.

 

And as I knew about her disorders well, we went to meet the doctor next day. The doctor said that her analytical portion of brain is stopped due to manic episode. She cant take anything rationally. And its like alcoholism where she lost consciousness of reality-time-date-space etc. Doctor said her that “you have to chose between this love or your life. This love will be end in a failure after few years.” And she chose this new love over life.

 

Then she returned back to her work city. And she suddenly stopped all the communication saying that “now on i dont need any help or assistance or guidance from anyone. I am a grown up person of 32 and i can think about my own good and bad. You are a needy person. You are lacking many things in your life. You are not lovable. And i dont even prefer to communicate with you because you dont even deserve communication etc…”

 

So this was the final talk. We are not in communication since 1 month. Its totally unexpected & just unbelievable for me. Any way i am trying my best to come out from the suffering. And I still love her, and hope she will be back.

 

(she is not taking medicines since she moved to other city, i.e. 2 years)

 

It becomes bit long. Thanks for reading.

 

Please share your opinions.Thanks

[d0nnivain]

She used you as a crutch and a winch to drag her out of the misery that is her life. As soon as she was strong enough, she dumped you. It was a rather callous thing to do but you are better off without her. You are kind nurturing person & you need to find somebody who will appreciate those gifts.

 

 

Do yourself a favor though, stop with the wounded birds. Find a woman who is already healthy & love her. Fixer-upper projects should be for houses, furniture & cars, not relationships.

[triple-s]

She wont come back .

 

its done . Move on dude

 

Youll thank yourself for it ...

[triple-s]

fixer-upper projects should be for houses, furniture & cars, not relationships.

 

 

love this =)