kismet8 Posted April 12, 2016 Posted April 12, 2016 (edited) It's been almost 60 days since my ex and i took a break. We had a relationship that was 94 miles away and we had been together for a year and three months. In the three months he proposed to me, but i was not ready since i felt like it was too soon and we barely knew each other. My Dad got sick in December and i was sent to ICU for his kidney that was down to 2%. I have been battling alot of pain and fear of my Dad passing. I got so frustrated i kept asking my ex what are future would entail and what steps do we need to build a future. He kept giving me the run around for 3 weeks with a response of I don't know. As time passed i got more and more angry with his i don't know response and it made me question if we even had a future. Valentines Day the rug got pulled out from under me. I just got so unhappy with uncertainty. He left me and never came back. I tried to contact him to talk about things, but he said it was painful to see me and i just would hurt him since he does not know. He would rather just talk on the phone. During our phone conversation he said he needed a break to figure what the future plans would be. I got frustrated, more negative remarks flew back and forth between us. After that final conversation i went out of the country to go to a wedding for a few days. I was hurt, depressed, and stressed about a partner that had no certainty and a father that was passing. I had incredible pain in my heart and just snowballed down. Getting out of the country allowed me to escape for a little bit to build strength, which was definitely much needed. When i returned i did not want to contact him (since the last convo he just hurt me with insulting me because he was hurt) and he did not contact me. I figured he needed time to think about things. At this point i have not heard from him and we never broke off our relationship. I assume the actions mean he has moved on. It still drives me crazy that the ending happened the way it did. I still love him, but by actions trying to move forward. Need motivation and tipsssss...pass along viewpoints. Edited April 12, 2016 by kismet8
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