feeling terrible

[Roco23]

Hey everyone

 

Im a 23 year old guy i live on my own......

 

I have never been a confident person and have never had a decent level of self esteem and self worth

 

I recently broke up with my girlfriend who is extremely beautiful she is actually a model for a popular underwear brand i met her through a friend and after asking her a few times we finally went on a date and we hit it off from there... (this was my fist proper relationship Ive ever had)

 

Im really nothing special to look at and i was so happy with her she made me feel more confident in myself and like the luckiest guy on earth.

 

we were dating for 5 months and i caught her cheating on me at my brothers birthday party with her ex. I felt crushed and broken but she swore it was a mistake and would never happen again and i forgave her...

 

but in the back of my mind i couldn't get what she did out of my head but it was getting better slowly and she recently moved in with me .

 

Two weeks ago i found her cheating on me with a work partner of hers in our bed because i wanted to surprise her by bringing her flowers and being home early ......

 

Needless to say we broke up...

 

Its been two weeks now and she already has a new boyfriend she never apologized to me or anything she just moved on and is happy and i feel crushed ive never felt this way before i don't go out and when i look at myself in the mirror i just see ugly....

 

I felt like killing myself a few times because i cant help but feel Ive lost the girl of my dreams... The only reason i haven't is because my mom and brother would be devastated if I did.....

 

 

I have a huge nose and blackheads all over I feel hideous and hate myself

 

Im on anti depression medication but i feel hideous and will be single forever I just hate myself....

 

Any advice would be greatly appreciated thank you everyone

[smudge21]

Sorry you're suffering, but sadly the bad times often come hand in hand with the good; it's part of life. Definitely no reason to end it all for though. She was one person, out of 7 billion, and not a very nice person either from the sound of things. The fact you're only 23 too means you have plenty of years ahead to experience much better things, and you will.

 

 

Consider her a moment of learning. You got the hot girl, the girl who gets all the attention because of how she looks, and probably little else (the fact she can bounce around and cheat without a single care says a lot about the type of person she is underneath those looks too). Do not judge yourself on her actions. The fact is, you still dated her. Yeah it was short, yeah it ended badly, but for a while you still dated her. So as much as you're putting yourself down, consider building yourself up too.

 

 

After this, next time you'll be more aware and able to judge someone better (although saying that, we often all continue to make similar mistakes throughout life). I once dated the hot model girl too and I look back and wonder how on earth I got with her simply based on her looks and the attention she got. Oddly, that too ended in similar ways, but after I'd got past the hurt and anger, I now look back on it like a positive; a moment to say "yeah, I pulled that" (I know that sounds bad, but sometimes it's good to just big yourself up and give yourself a confidence boost). Also right now you still have her on that pedestal, but eventually she'll come crashing down and the reality of how she treated you will clear you head and heart, and you'll no longer feel this way about her.

 

 

Don't be so hard on yourself and instead focus on healing from this and then moving on to the next adventure. Life's a journey, sometimes it takes wrong turns, but you can always steer it back on to a better path. Good luck.

[Marco Valerio]

Hi mate,

 

I'm so sorry for what you are going through right now, I know it hurts deeply.

 

My advice is that you should try to forget about her, do not contact her in any way. Try to do your best to move on, if you find anything that you believe could help, do it. In my case for example, I burned all the letters and pictures I had from her, it did help a lot.

 

And another thing is, never let a cheater stay in your life, remove them as soon as possible, without any other consideration.

[LostOnes05]

The girl of your dreams??!! Bro, she cheated on you...twice. She sounds more like a nightmare. Remember that looks will fade eventually and all she'll be left with is a less than appealing character. Best of luck in your healing...don't put her on a pedestal, she's a cheater.