Love Roller-coaster? Can't stop to catch a break.

[CharmingCharlie]

Okay so I know I've talked about this a dozen times on here but I can't seem to figure out what to do STILL.

 

Long story short my boyfriend and I broke up in October and proceeded to get back together two weeks later.(NOT BECAUSE WE WHERE TAKING A BREAK WE HAD A DUMB FIGHT AND CALLED IT QUITS THEN REALIZED WE WHERE BEING STUPID).

 

Please no Judgment here we both are in our 20's and still act very childish at times but it happens.

 

ANyway to sum it up for you mom mom hates him his mom hates me we have no idea what for but just do and anyway the way we broke up sucked because it was very public and now all of our friends and family frown upon our relationship. we both defend each other like were protecting the crown jewels we are in this together and it seams like the bond is so thick that no one could really screw us up now (before we let everything anyone said kinda get to us) It's like we both have this insane force field and try to ignore everyone as best as we can while we seek out an apartment and find better jobs.

 

He really has it in his head that everything is going to look up. I feel the same but at the same time I can't seem to get closer over this thing that happened while we where broken up.

 

I've said in another post that while we where apart he had sex with this girl whose boyfriend he's close friends with at his old job. The couple invited him to have sex together. This happened twice and I have come to turns that I can't do anything about it it was his way of coping and there's absolutely nothing I can do to change that HOWEVER....

 

when we got back together we both new we had to keep things quiet for a while... we carried on with our usual lives and saw each other when we could although it was nerve racking when everyone was checking on us and it sucked BUT he continued to stay friends with the couple he did cut off the sexual relationship and I took a snoop through his phone to see. what bothers me tho is the bitch that couldn't close her legs is in love with him. I know this because I can feel it and she has no idea who he is and i hate her for it. she just loves whoever ****s her nasty pussy. Anyway to keep things seeming like we weren't seeing each other he has to spend time with them and I hated that because it made me insecure. He has not spoken to them now for months but for the longest time I felt like this whole thing with sharing him with them was ridiculous and it broke my hear. I can't seem to get closer about it because even though he says they mean nothing and that he wants that all to die so we can move on I still feel that there was something he isn't' telling me about that time.