winstonthebear23 Posted April 3, 2016 Posted April 3, 2016 So little back-story, I met my ex-girlfriend at a university neither of us go to. We had mutual friends that are in the same frat and just so happen to be at the same party. I literally saw her and felt a wave of interest and care for this person, and yet knew nothing about her. We didn't really talk for a while (mostly because I’m super shy) but later that night we bumped into each other and made few jokes and all of a sudden, we start talking a lot more and just become close. We loved the same music, same tv shows, and same outlooks on life. I knew something was different about her. We ended up staying together that night and slept in the same bed but didn't have sex. She didn't want it and to be honest neither did I. I was much more interested in her and what she had to say. I found out we live about two and a half hours away at different schools, which sucked because in my head, I knew this was not going to work out. However, looking past that we talked all night and learned a lot about her. She is this kind, sweet, innocent girl from a small town. Just like me. She was very funny and told a lot of jokes that I felt no one else would get. Later that night I found out she never had a boyfriend before, which shocked me because this was an absolute perfect, funny, wholesome girl. Without hesitation, I whispered under my breathe, "I’m going to be your first". Deep down I knew she heard me. We eventually went our separate ways that morning but still kept in contact. We texted every day and for long periods of time, and to be honest I was the happiest I’ve been in a long time. We decided to meet halfway in a small town about two weeks after meeting. It was our first date. I surprised her with a picnic; we talked and hung out, and drove to a nearby drive in Movie Theater. I was absolutely perfect. About 11pm, we both had to drive home, I flat out asked her if she wanted to start dating and she said she wasn't sure. To be honest I wasn’t mad or upset. I was willing to wait for this girl and I did. We still texted every day and about a month later, she invited me to come to her house. I drove the 2 hours there and again we really had a perfect time. We ended up playing at a local park when she brought up dating. She looked me straight in the eye and said she would love to. I was filled with a happiness that was never experience in my lifetime. Who'd thought, meeting a girl 3 hours away, under the most unlikely circumstances and start dating? I ended up meeting her parents who were the absolute sweetest people. Fast-forward a year and a half of dating. Throughout our relationship, we would drive down to each other schools about two weeks give or take. Throughout this time with her, we grew extremely close and I knew from the beginning I was going to fall in love with her and I did. To his day, I still have strong feeling for her. We never fought, occasional arguments, but we would always talk it out. We were perfect. We loved the same things and thought the same way and things were still great after a year and a half of dating. Then one day, randomly she questioned if "we" could keep doing the distance thing for another 2-3 years. I assured her that I was 100% invested in this and I was willing to do this. (Little did either of us know that I was accepted into a university about a half hour away from her, but sadly, neither of us was aware). She skyped and she told me that she didn't know if she can keep doing this and didn't know if dating right now is the best thing to do. I was absolutely heartbroken but I had to maintain my cool and let her decide what she wanted. I told her my feelings towards her and put all of my cards on the table and told her she has to decide if she wants to be with me. She said she had to think and walked away from the computer screen. In that time I flashed backed all of our time together and what we had and questioned if this was really about to happen. She came back and said I maybe be the one she ends up with for the rest of her life and maybe be the one but that she needed to take a step back and think about her life. I told her I understood and told her if there was anything if could do to get her back I would. She said she knew and that it is so hard not to leap back into my arms and take me back but that there was something holding her back. I have not talked to her in about 2 and a half months. I did post my acceptance letter to that university on Facebook and she snap chatted me, a week after we broke up, congratulations but never sent me a picture of her face. We snapped about three or 4 times before ending the conversation. She has now been partying a lot more and is been more active in social media about her day and thoughts And I have been also keeping myself busy with school and trying to improve myself. In the end, I am happy for her but I still really miss her and want to try this again. I honestly do not hate her or mad about her decision. (I could never be mad at her) I know I have to wait awhile to see how she feels but I am afraid she does not want to be with me anymore. I sadly do not know what to do and do not want to do anything that would jeopardize my relationship with her. If someone could give me their honest opinion that would be great. Thanks for reading.
TaraMaiden2 Posted April 3, 2016 Posted April 3, 2016 Anyone who really wants to be with you - will make the effort it takes to be with you. I don't know in how many different ways she needs to try to get it across, but - she's not into you, and doesn't want to be with you. NC Guide, my signature. Read, re-read, and read again. Follow, stick to and implement 100%, 100% of the time.
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