Miss my ex like mad

[barbossa]

We've been broken up half a year now

In my mind we are still together just apart

She says she wants nothing to do with me and it feels like getting punched hard .

I miss her terribly, especially at nights though we didn't cohabitate

Knowing I will never hug or kiss her hurts

I miss it more than sex.

It hurts to know she wants to move on

I see she reads the messages I send ( it shows that she does, but when she ignores me it hurts more than her mean response.... she says she doesn't want my messages no more)

 

I remember our last cold kiss and hug but even that I yearn for now....

I wish and reflect on our simpler nice times... Wish I can get back to those times

Nights are the hardest since I lay in my bed knowing she will never be there again

 

 

I work out daily now I've been on dates at least 8 I've kissed another girl. I go out on weekends, I'm life of party sometimes. You would never know by how I feel when I interact with girls

 

But they all mean nothing

 

Hug and kiss the ones you love they may not always be with you to do it.

[ad4m]

Sounds to me like you need to do something to get her out of your head. By this, I don't mean going and sleeping with a women or trying to get a girlfriend just to replace her, but do something like go away for a while or try doing activities that require 100% focus, so you're not thinking about her.

 

Unfortunately, from what you say, she has moved on and there doesn't look like a way of you two getting back together. You obviously loved this girl a lot, as it's been 6 months and you still aren't over her. But as hard as it seems, you just need to forget about her.

[scooby-philly]

OP

 

Without information about the nature of your relationship and why/how/when the breakup occurred our advice - though useful, will not be complete.

 

I say this because I went through a similar experience. Lost a fiancee 4 days before our scheduled wedding date. Suffice to say I was a wreck for weeks and then hurting for months. This summer will be three years. I think about her on occasion - but to the first poster's point - I openly wept those initial weeks, talked my head/heart out till I was running in circles, and just followed my gut and head - focusing on what I wanted, what I needed. After a bad break up - i.e. you've been close and together for a long period of time, it's important to be selfish - your true friends (and family) will understand.

 

From what little you shared - sounds like you haven't gone through a real cleansing of the soul and there's something unresolved. Just keep this in mind - relationships are two way streets. You may not want to share how/why it ended - but even the worst dog (yes I'm being sexist here and picking on men) deserves forgiveness. Meaning, okay - you cheated on her 10 times - yeah - she should have dumped your ass!!!!, but you cheated once and she didn't give you a chance - or you got laid off and out of work for 3 months and she felt like you weren't "reliable" - that's on her not you. Even if the cause of the split was you - she chose to accept the finality of the split. You can be happy. And happiness is the best revenge.

[Larryville]

Had written something but scratched that I’ll just be blunt, read some of your other stuff, you need professional help, this is NOT about your ex. Don’t know if you have an extended network of friends but reach out to someone.