Bad Breakup Need .

[JustJoee]

This is my second attempt cause my computer died writing the first so this might be short. Basically, me and my girlfriend met in high school during my senior year and her freshmen. We both couldn't really tell you why we started going out. We just wanted to. The first five months were great no fighting or anything, hanging out everyday. She was in her sophomore year of high school and I was going to college about two hours away, but we both wanted to keep it. Even though it was tough a few fights here and there we made it past my first year. During the first year and a half or so though, the relationship was more her loving me than equal love. And while on vacation she told me and we had a big fight and she wanted out of the relationship. I was able to convince her however and we got back together. I got a little better but still not what I should of been. We were fine until the holidays where a smaller fight of the same type happened. After this one I got a little more better, but still not good. Than when I went back to college I was trying my hardest to love her. I was at the level i should of been from the start. Everyday I would tell her how much I would want to spend the rest of my life with her and she agreed. One night I had a conversation with her however if she would really marry me, expecting an obvious answer of yes. But she called me and said she couldn't see us. This lead to a big fight over the phone and we temp break up. She said she wanted to stop hurting me because when she gets to college after the next year she wanted to be independent and single and experience college alone. I didn't like hearing that because I went into college with her and am still having a great time. We got back together however because she found out I was suicidal. She told me that's not the reason why we got back together so at the time I believed it. She told me she was in this for the long run which made me so happy. The next two weeks I been trying my hardest to be the best boyfriend and she noticed and was really happy I was doing it. However, when I came back for easter break yesterday she came over my house and broke up with me. She said a year from now she will want to be single going into college. This just breaks my heart cause I wanted to spend my life with this girl. I really want her back, but don't know how to react. I've tried texting her, but I realized that isn't the best thing probably. I need some advice on how if I could get her back. She was my motivation for literally everything in my life and I just feel so broken. I love her so much and want to get back together and need some advice. Thank you so much