Having a bad day (not sure where else to post this)

[blackbird_brokenwing]

Well, as the title says, I'm not sure where else to post this and the subforum description said this is the place for that, so here goes!

 

I'm just having a rough day. It's not even 8am here and I'm already blue.

I was supposed to have my One on One with my boss today. My boss never speaks to me unless absolutely necessary and usually only when I've done something wrong so she's got this air of "larger than life" and when she does speak to me, I always become a ball of nerves. It's just a routine check in, she is scheduling everyone in my department, but she said to come to the meeting prepared with areas in which you'd like further training or instruction. I'm probably freaking out over nothing but this stresses me out because I don't think I need further training right now and I fear change, so I don't want my job duties to change. But if I come empty handed, I'm afraid that will look bad and I don't want to seem arrogant. I just know what I'm doing and it's going smoothly, why mess with it? I'm a provider analyst and I am good at what I do, I have my routine down, and saying I want to be trained in other areas sounds like my routine would change. Anyway, my One on One was supposed to happen in an hour and I was SO HAPPY to get it over with and be stress free this weekend and she just rescheduled it for Monday. I literally didn't sleep last night because I'm so anxious about this and now I have to wait three more days.

 

Then on top of that I saw on Facebook that a girl I dated 2 years ago (and was never really interested in, try as I might to like her because she was crazy about me, I just didn't) she is happily in another relationship and has been for over a year, moved 3 states to live with her new girlfriend, and now they are getting their own house. I'll get over it and be fine, she wasn't the one for me anyway. It's just salt in the wound because her life is going swimmingly and I'm still reeling from my BPD ex girlfriend who left me without a trace two months ago. I feel like my life is in the gutter and seeing really happy people (especially someone I "dumped") just hurts.

 

I'm not really looking for advice, just feeling sad and wanted to vent to sympathetic strangers. Sometimes I feel like such a Debbie Downer that I don't want to go to my IRL friends when I'm feeling this way because I feel like I annoy them with my sadness. Sigh. Thanks for listening, and may you have a better Friday than I am having.

Edited March 25, 2016 by blackbird_brokenwing

[Beach Guy]

Embrace the happiness of your former partner. She has found who she is seeking. And someday you too.

 

Hope your meeting went fine!

Edited March 30, 2016 by Beach Guy