dreamingoftigers Posted March 20, 2016 Posted March 20, 2016 Was my first DDay. I just realized about half an hour ago. I wasn't really thinking about it, now it hit me like a brick. Of course I didn't get the full truth that day. Pffft... This one is just too weird because I am one less week pregnant than I was that day. It made me remember how happy I was back then. Totally, naively in love. About to have the little family of my dreams. In the next week I would go through not wanting to even have a baby anymore, crying and throwing up, trying to get away from all of it and yelling and screaming. Dumping everything off of a table at one point and flinging a cup of juice that was being offered to me by my husband. I was 26 and 8.5 months into my first pregnancy. Now I'm 33 and closer to 8 months pregnant. I barely even recognize who I was back then. Infidelity changed me forever. I know "we all change" but wow, what a sudden, striking difference. 18
Mrs. John Adams Posted March 20, 2016 Posted March 20, 2016 Look how far you have come! We can carry the scars of infidelity as a reminder of where we were and how far we have come...we can change to become better or bitter. Congratulations on making it this far and the new bambino! 6
Cloudcuckoo Posted March 20, 2016 Posted March 20, 2016 Was my first DDay. I just realized about half an hour ago. I wasn't really thinking about it, now it hit me like a brick. Of course I didn't get the full truth that day. Pffft... This one is just too weird because I am one less week pregnant than I was that day. It made me remember how happy I was back then. Totally, naively in love. About to have the little family of my dreams. In the next week I would go through not wanting to even have a baby anymore, crying and throwing up, trying to get away from all of it and yelling and screaming. Dumping everything off of a table at one point and flinging a cup of juice that was being offered to me by my husband. I was 26 and 8.5 months into my first pregnancy. Now I'm 33 and closer to 8 months pregnant. I barely even recognize who I was back then. Infidelity changed me forever. I know "we all change" but wow, what a sudden, striking difference. Ahh, what a reflection dreaming! And as Mrs J says, look at you today! It must be quite poignant, and a bittersweet moment I would imagine, as you anticipate your new addition's arrival! You have triumphed over the most horrendous circumstances, and that has culminated in the excitement of welcoming your new baby into your family. Now THAT is a real celebration! My kindest respect and admiration, you are a 'Tigress' indeed! Cuckoo X 3
Marc878 Posted March 20, 2016 Posted March 20, 2016 The past was a horrible experience for you. No one deserves that. I wish you well and hope the rest is fantastic for you. He's lucky you stayed. I do hope he realizes that and makes it up every day. You deserve it. 2
dichotomy Posted March 20, 2016 Posted March 20, 2016 I barely even recognize who I was back then. Infidelity changed me forever. I know "we all change" but wow, what a sudden, striking difference. Sorry for what happened and when it happened. Thats awful. and yes, I am some one else as well. Someone more and someone less. It will be 11 years this summer for me. Time for you to bring another new life into the world - to know unconditional love once again with another child. That is what is worth it. Congrats. 2
BlueIris Posted March 20, 2016 Posted March 20, 2016 Congratulations on ALL of the great changes! Way to go!
Steen719 Posted March 20, 2016 Posted March 20, 2016 Congratulations, DOT. I hope all is going OK with you. And, I agree. Infidelity changed me forever. It is what it is. I do the best I can, but it is a part of me, just like any other experience. It was just such a "large" experience - you know. Let us know how the pregnancy is going. 3
ladydesigner Posted March 23, 2016 Posted March 23, 2016 Oh I love you DOT you have helped me so much on LS. I wish nothing but serenity for you and the new baby and the hubby too (if he's being nice ). How exciting! Kids are the biggest blessings in life! Many many hugs to you and a big fist pound for the 7 years. I know how infidelity has changed me too. Here's to making a better life!!! 1
merrmeade Posted March 23, 2016 Posted March 23, 2016 And I remember you three years ago on my first thread, how raw and bruised you still sounded, processing all the life events that had brought you to that moment and appreciate now how much you've changed even since then. Your posts show incredible courage, insight and generosity. ou're doing great. 2
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