crownupguy Posted March 13, 2016 Posted March 13, 2016 (edited) My ex-girlfriend and i broke up at the start of this year after being together almost 3 years, which 2 of them we lived together. It was kind of a mutual thing. At the start of the relationship it was amazing, i was madly inlove with her and she was even more inlove with me. I always kind of held back my feelings for her to some degree which i think made her love me even more. We never fought alot and we really just enjoyed each others company. Fast forward a year i really started to neglect her, i think it was due to her overwhelming love that i felt smothered at times. I then cheated on her with a girl (just kissing) and i admitted it and i broke up with her. We then got back together after around 2 weeks when she was begging for me to take her back, i still loved her alot and gave it another chance even though i felt like i didn't deserve her. Her love for me really was unconditional. She never talked about it after this, and we really did rebuild the relationship again and we were happy again. Then the last year of the relationship i started to take things for granted again, i had then quit my job and we really started to drift apart, she hated that i wasnt working and i just could not care less of what she was thinking. She then brought up that she was going to move out if i didnt find a job, i said "it's okay" and really wanted out of the relationship. Just a couple of days after she moved, it hit me really hard, i was losing the girl i loved. I then started to beg and plead and telling her i didn't want to lose her and that i didnt know why i was acting this way the last year. She then said if i showed her that i really had changed she would take me back. I then got my old job back and started to shower her with affection (bad idea i know) I could notice her attraction for me fading. I then went home with her after i met her a night out on the town and we had sex, she initiated it. I thought everything was fixed, little did i know when we woke up the next day she was as cold as ice. After this my feelings was really out of control and i begged and pleaded once again until she finally had it and told me "it was never gonna be us again and that i had to move on" It was the worst day of my life and for the next 3 weeks i went no contact and tried to move on and improving myself. Last night i met her again drinking and i went home with her yet again by telling her how much i loved her and that i was really sorry for all the pain i had caused her. That i was really trying to change and that i was not doing it for her, but for myself. My feelings were much more under control this time and i could talk to her without cracking. We had the most amazing sex we had ever had and i really thought that we could work it out this time, she was telling me how much she loved me, and that she had missed me. The next day when we woke up, she was cold all over again and showed no emotions towards me whatsoever. I then basically told her that i still loved and missed her, and if she ever changed her mind just contact me. I feel like the heartbreak restarted itself all over again, where do i go from here? I really love this girl with all my heart, i know that i would do better this time. Im inlove with her all over again Edited March 13, 2016 by crownupguy
Tutancamon Posted March 13, 2016 Posted March 13, 2016 I didn't cheat on my girl of five years but said mean words to her... then I lost her. It's been three months. Nothing we can do anymore. Just accept it. Try to go out with new girls, even if you don't want anything from them, just be a friend.
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