5 years just ended yesterday. I wrote this day 2 into NC last night.

[Chrisg189]

My heart is broken. Don't you think you're moving on too fast? Everything we shared meant something to me and still does. I still love you. I was too blind by life passing by and the stress of it all to really notice my girlfriend and her interests. I wish i could've changed sooner for the better. Should've taken more initiative like quitting my job if it was making me to unhappy because it carried over into the relationship. Ive should've been more supportive understanding and empathic to her. Like what kind of poetry did she enjoy? Who was her favorite author and why? Who was the painter most interested in and why are they different from all the others? She could've opened my mind to so many other things like writing, traveling, culture. Some of the finer things. We could've set the world on fire. But when you get lost in routine and monotony, you forget whats most important to you even when its in front of your eyes. You begin to develop a sense of self confidence that becomes abrasive and egotistical. You start to become a different person slowly over time until you lose yourself. You lose the person she first fell in love with. You become a robot. Focused. Focused on the future. Focused on making life better for the two of you. Everything else loses growth. When nothing is reconciled, addressed, or communicated, the resentment grows and it begins to weigh heavy on your heart. You get angry, upset, childish, stupid. You begin to act out.

Then, all of a sudden outside influences begin to make sense to her because she cant understand what she wants amidst all her inner turmoil and confusion. She knows in her heart what's right but her mind play tricks on her until she eventually falls apart and break down. She starts to feel helpless. Isolated. Lonely. The relationship you know your happy in starts to have seeds of doubt planted. And those seeds of doubt come from not the heart, but the environment and all the pressure and stress that comes with it. Everybody's goal in life is to find the true meaning of happiness. For a romantic like me, all that matters is the tender love from a woman's heart. I don't ask for much, just a little action or reciprocation in a way that could make life a little easier for the both of us. Thats true happiness. Not money, material, or people but having the one you love and knowing she loves you just as much.

Unconditional love can never be broken therefore the person who feels unconditional love could never leave you.

Edited March 10, 2016 by Chrisg189
Wrong title

[Empire87]

Please don't ever send that to her.

[kztar]

same boat buddy. yeah don't send that to her.

[Satu]

Letters like that are good to write as part of your recovery, but don't send it, or anything like it.

 

Focus on yourself.

 

 

Take care.

[SammySammy]

It's beautiful.

 

So perceptive, but too little, too late.

 

My ex wrote me a similar letter the night we broke up. I didn't find it until I moved a few months ago. Nine years after we broke up. She had put it in one of my nearly 500 books. I came across it when unpacking my books in my new home.

 

Very poignant and touching letter though. Very perceptive. Memories. Regrets. Best wishes for the future. Saddened that we both let love slip away ....

[Weathersf1]

Beautifully written. But like the other fellas said, under no circumstances should that letter ever see the light of day in your exs hand. I'm currently in month 3 of Break up after a 3 year relationship and am just now starting to see the value of NC and life away from her.

[drewbee30]

Awesome man! I can relate!

[tstump]

Amazing how much that resonates