Taking a Break or Break Up, the Fear of Being Alone Forever

[mlpfimlove]

The longest I was single was for 4 years, before my current Boyfriend of 1 year and 2 months entered the picture. Him and I have had our good times and bad times like any other couple. But as of 2016 started, him and I have been constantly fighting on and off, me crying and feeling miserable and unhappy every single day.

 

Him and I have sat down and had those long talks, making up and hoping things would be the for better but things end up repeating themselves, having that same cycle happen again and again.

 

So now, him and I have been thinking about taking a break, cutting off communication altogether, to even taking a break and seeing other people, to breaking up altogether for good.

 

I have read various articles on couples that take a break and it hurts me to do it. Part of me, wants to do it, and part me does not, because I don't want to hurt him or him to hurt me.

 

I just want us to be happy and us to get along but just don't know what to do anymore. I am scared of being single, I am almost 30, and you know what they say, the older you get, the tougher it gets to date.

 

Please help.

[Satu]

What is it that you've been fighting about?

[mlpfimlove]

What is it that you've been fighting about?

 

Various topics,

 

Him accusing me of cheating

Him saying that I don't care, love, appreicate him

Him frustrated that we won't have sex, but he knows and respects that I am waiting and saving myself for marriage, but wants to still have sex

 

I have an attitude so I tend to yell and scream so when I yell and scream and I am upset at him, I yell, scream, put him down, and he hates this. So when I do this, he refuses to talk to me, and always wants to step away and not talk to me for a few hours.

 

Ever since I was a kid, I have always LOVED concerts and I go to a few every month, and him and I have gone to about 18 total, and he has missed 17. In 2016, he missed 6 of my concerts, and he hurt me by missing those shows, but he missed them because he didn't like my attitude and me yelling and screaming at him. So he would refuse to go to anymore of my concerts.

 

Then he says he wouldn't go to my concerts, until I went to his events. I have tried getting into his style of music but it isn't my type of music. But he goes on about how, it shouldn't be about the music, I should be going to his event because it will show him how I care and love him by being there.

 

But then he says he goes to my concerts not for the music but to make me happy but then he says he goes because he likes the music, bands, and the venues.

 

Him and I live about 40-50 miles a part from each other, he drives, works, but he keeps complaining about he he has to drive 1 hour if not 1 hour and 10-20 minutes to see me and thats getting to him.

 

I do not drive and using public transit to see him is difficult. I am getting a job so getting a car and going to see him will still take me time to get.

 

He doesn't care if I don't drive or don't work but yet he complains. He is dealing with stress and pressure in his own life.

 

I am dealing with stress and pressure in my life. I just want us to be happy like we were when we first went out and I do not know what to do.