Jesse101 Posted March 7, 2016 Posted March 7, 2016 Well, here it goes. My life right now sucks. Three months ago I met this amazing girl at my work. Two months later we started dating.. and at this time my life was taking a turn for the worst even before I met her it just never hit me.. until a month ago. everything that could go wrong in a 18 year olds life went wrong. I'm on the verge of not graduating, I had to quit my job in order to attempt to bring my grades up which left me broke so I can never pay for her when we do things.. we have cut back on doing things because I feel like crap for not being able to provide for her.. Then my car catches on fire leaving me out of a car.. and no money to get a car with.. my mom is terminally ill with epilepsy which had caused so much stress in my house hold I cant be there for more than an hour before wanting to explode.. my relationship with my parents in nonexistent anymore as well. School makes me want to kill myself.. nothing there fuels my drive to learn.. then theres my girlfriend.. Shes got it so good.. she 18 and makes significantly more money than me, has a nice car, a great relationship with her parents, thrived in school and does well for herself.. I think I need to end it. not because I want to, but because im not good for her. im a loser.. she need someone who actually has there stuff together.. iv told her this before but she claim that I am the one and that I am perfect.. I just can live with this burden right now... I cant see her and make her wait for me.. I don't know what to so anymore..
preraph Posted March 7, 2016 Posted March 7, 2016 Let me see if I can change your perspective. You're dealing with a very ill terminal parents, a very adult problem to have, one which most people your age do not have to cope with. You are struggling with school, which we all do at one time or another, and you have a crap job that doesn't pay much, which most of us do. And now your car has blown up. All these are things that adults have to cope with, but you're having to cope with some of them before it's normal to have to cope with them. It's requiring you to become more mature than anyone your age would like to be and stressing you out. At any age, these things would stress you out, but they're all on you like a landslide right now, and it's hard. Sometimes when a person has to suddenly learn to deal with adult things, they outgrow some of their friends, who can't really comprehend what they're going through and how they have to learn to manage and struggle to cope. There was another post on here about a teen who lost his girlfriend in a tragic accident - and suddenly he began seeing a woman a few years older. Well, that's not really surprising because he's had to mature faster than most of his friends and someone who hasn't had any adversity can't relate or understand you. Not sure that's your girlfriend as she sounds easygoing and positive, but I could understand if you felt she was really no good with understanding the depth of your dilemma, because she's still young and carefree. You ARE good enough for her. You are doing everything right as far as going to school AND working AND trying to cope with a very depressing situation at home. You are much more skilled at all this than she is, despite the fact that right now she's sitting pretty without a care in the world. So remember that. Please check with your school counselor and see if you can start just talking to a counselor who may be able to help you with advice in all kinds of ways and as well as be a safe place to blow your top and express all your justified frustration and anger. If the school has no such counselor, then talk to a church if you are so inclined. They'd be good at this sort of thing as well. You are kind of alone because everyone in your family is so stressed and your girlfriend isn't able to fully understand it all, so reach outside for some adult counseling and advice, not psychological counseling, just someone who may be able to give you some helpful life experience. Good luck.
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