broken guy Posted June 13, 2005 Posted June 13, 2005 So, I have been away. I woke up one day last week and deceided to simply vanish. The main reason was to try and make people worry and hopefully it would prevent my parents divorcing and my Mum would keep the house she loves. I put food in my friends fridge and just left without a word. I took my phone for super emergencies but apart from that I never checked it. I would get the odd email and text asking where I was and people were worried but it was all part of my "masterplan". Anyway, I digress. Someone gave my ex my new email address. I got a new one in an attempt to move on like she had asked but I have since discovered that she sat down and worked out my new password and read emails from my Mum about the divorce details! I am horrified by this. OK, I went away and people got worried but to break into my new email and read stuff from my family is out of order. I have yet to confront her with this and know she will only say she was worried and wanted to find out where I was but reading emails entitled where are you will NOT give her the answers. She has the new BF and still wants to be my friend (for some reason) but she also called the embassy to see what they could do to find me! What message does this send out? Firstly, I DONT think she wants me back and that was NEVER my intention but think I should break my NC with her just to say what she has done was unwelcome etc. I wouldnt shout at her but how can I be expected to move on when she breaks into my new email. I dont want to mail her as that can be read and ignored, I dont want to call her as phones can be ignored but I dont want to see her as I still, after 3 months, still love her dearly and cry. Advice?
Author broken guy Posted June 13, 2005 Author Posted June 13, 2005 Well, turns out that my Mum may have told her by accident so I had better not confront her. Still, its been 3 months since I was dumped via email and I still cry about her. It makes it harder that she was seeing her new guy while she was "fixing" things with me, i find evidence and dont confront her about it coz I believed her lies when I asked her if she had anything to tell me and said this guy fancied her but that was HIS problem. And how she cried when I went away.......I'm in a horrid spirial that I HAVE been trying SO hard to get out of but it keeps coming back to haunt me. 3 months after 4 years and in an email and even this initial email was a lie saying there was no one else. I cant imagine being with another girl ever, she was my little angel who cared so much for me until the end...
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