chaddercheese Posted February 26, 2016 Posted February 26, 2016 I wish that someone had cheated it would have made it so much easier to break up than 'we just dont work together'. Ive had plenty if girls in the past that ive got to known, had a relationship with but i havent ever put myself out there and invested my whole persona into a relationship like this one. It seemed so perfect for the whole time we were together, but thats just me looking through rose tinted glasses the whole time. I eventually took a step back and realised she wasnt in this at all. No matter what she said, last valentines even she wrote a note saying how much she loves me and wants this forever and she cant imagine a life with anyone else. A few days ago she said that if she lost me she would hurt forever and never move on. But yesterday she proved again she has no commitment and it was all talk to lull me into a false sense of security. The proceeding discussion started with me saying that she shows no commitment and im just being dragged along and lied to until she gets her move to live with her friends 200 miles away. Something she told me she has no interest in until last week i saw on her phone her applying for rooms and jobs down there. At this point she turns on me, shouting swearing, making stuff up and accusing me of it, calling me names etc. My friends have seen how she talks to me before and said the first time she ever did that to them theyd be out the door, i feel disgusted with myself for letting me be spoken to like that frankly. "Your words dont affect me at all. Someone so pathetic does not scare me, and i am definitley not taking advice on being a good person off someone like you who tries and fails to bully me, blag your way out of everything, try and make me feel like its my fault that you canm't be loyal to one person. And youre supposed to be a man? Youre nothing more than a little boy and you are going to have a hard time finding someone that will put up with you unless you grow up." Thats actually the last message she sent, 5 or so hours and me saying that she isnt commited after saying that she loves me and would hate to lose me. She revealed her true colours over the relationship as she became more invested and let her true front down and she was nothing more than a possesive bully, a controlling, nasty, jealous insecure scared little child who couldnt commit to anything because she would ultimately, as she confessed in a drunken chat months ago that i thought nothing of, lose her own identity in front of her friends. And thats what this was all about, she just wanted to fit in with her friends and they were nasty and controlling to, the way they made her feel scared to do anything because theyd disinclude her. It hurt my feelings at the time on her behalf as she argued for them but now i see i was disillusioned and she was just as bad. I mean me liking a photo of a girl before id even got with my ex was a reason she gave to me being unloyal, another was me messaging a friend who happened to be a girl, despite me being in bed, asking if she was out cause my mates tryna get hold of her. Her starting an argument that i went for a meal with friends when i went to visit them and then demanding to know who this girl that went was, this girl was seeing my friend but of course a girl going to a meal means im the one thats trying to **** her, so i say that its my mates gf, even thats to much to take and when she found out its just a **** buddy not a girlfriend then **** hit the fan. But she would lie about guys she was chatting to being gay all the time. In fact her lies were endless, who she was with, what she was doing, what she had done. It was so hurtful but if i ever mentioned this then everything would be turned on me. But after all.this, and after i end it to hear off a friend that she blocked me, that he went on my profile to see her profile and that it wasnt there anymore, that still hurts. When they say its forever, but it was never meant to be, after you invest so much time and energy into it, it hurts for it to just end because it wasnt right.
PegNosePete Posted February 26, 2016 Posted February 26, 2016 She caused so much drama when you were together. Is it any wonder she's causing a massive amount of drama when you broke up? It will pass. Block, delete, move on. The drama is no longer your problem so simply disassociate as much as possible from it.
Author chaddercheese Posted February 26, 2016 Author Posted February 26, 2016 It hurt this morning, when i looked on snapchat and despote yesterday us having the heart that signifies youve been best friends on it for a month, were now classed as just friends. She is my top friend still so its just now playing on my brain who this other guy is shes immediately boosted to her top friend and damn that hurts a hell of a lot.
Author chaddercheese Posted February 26, 2016 Author Posted February 26, 2016 She caused so much drama when you were together. Is it any wonder she's causing a massive amount of drama when you broke up? It will pass. Block, delete, move on. The drama is no longer your problem so simply disassociate as much as possible from it. This is what im trying but its hard when you integrate them into every stage of your life, everywhere you go and everything you look at, they had a history with you there. My favouritr food became our favourite food etc its hard
PegNosePete Posted February 26, 2016 Posted February 26, 2016 Delete. Block. Come on, you've been on this forum for a long time. You know the drill by now. We don't need to explain the reasons that NC is the best option, do we?
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