rickdiculous Posted February 25, 2016 Posted February 25, 2016 It's been years 3/4 since my high school sweetheart left me. We were together for 7 years. I woke up dreaming of him. I can't stop thinking I'm crazy. I think about how much I miss him. I keep crying because I realize i'm crazy. How can I think I still love him, even when he's getting married. Even when I think about all the **** he rationalized in the end. I feel crazy. Because, how can I care so much.? Is this all because of first love crap. I'm trying to pull my mind together, but I feel like I'v traveled back in time. I feel like that young girl who thought she knew her ex. Who thought, he loved her. I just need help.
OXS550 Posted February 25, 2016 Posted February 25, 2016 Ive dreamed of many exes before too. Its a tuff thing to deal with, especially if you don't know what triggered it. But you definitely are not crazy. I was with mine HS Gf for about 9, we were engaged but we grew apart and I called it off. Now I'm not recommending doing what I did, but after about about 6 months to a year later I decided to see if we could be friends without any affection. She was my best friend for those 9 years and we have been friends for about 16 years now. I attended her wedding an have actually stayed the night at their house once. But I was only able to do this once their was no romantic desire for her. I was glad to see her happy and with someone she deserved. This isn't something everyone can do, but in some way you may just miss his friendship and him being there. You can love your friends and not want to date them.
ksol9 Posted February 25, 2016 Posted February 25, 2016 Gosh I feel your pain. I am experiencing the same. I just feel so helpless. You have to try your best to control your feelings daily. As the days pass, make a goal to make it to the next day. It feels like trying to control a fire until it's gone. I feel like I'm treading water. I know I'll survive, but who knows how long this will take. I wish you luck. Have faith.
smudge21 Posted February 25, 2016 Posted February 25, 2016 Finding out about an ex will always, always bring you crashing back down to earth hard. All that healing will feel like it's been for nothing too. It hasn't, as you'll find you feel better quicker each time. Sure, it's still going to take a long time to get over someone (it happens to us all, first love to fifth and so on) and nothing you can do will speed up the process. You'll heal when you heal. You may not even notice when it happens. For what it's worth, we've met "the one", that person that we believe we'll never be able to replace. They are perfect in our eyes. It's only when you're healed do those rose-tinted love specs fall off and you realise the truth. Then you meet someone else and suddenly they're "the one". I think I've met "the one" about 4 times now... how can that be? Try to stay away from any information about him. It will only cause pain. Focus on doing whatever you can that is the opposite of that, no matter what it is. Friends, travel, chocolate... just take each day as it comes and you'll struggle, you'll fall, but in time you will be fine. We've all been there.
Author rickdiculous Posted February 25, 2016 Author Posted February 25, 2016 Ive dreamed of many exes before too. Its a tuff thing to deal with, especially if you don't know what triggered it. But you definitely are not crazy. I was with mine HS Gf for about 9, we were engaged but we grew apart and I called it off. Now I'm not recommending doing what I did, but after about about 6 months to a year later I decided to see if we could be friends without any affection. She was my best friend for those 9 years and we have been friends for about 16 years now. I attended her wedding an have actually stayed the night at their house once. But I was only able to do this once their was no romantic desire for her. I was glad to see her happy and with someone she deserved. This isn't something everyone can do, but in some way you may just miss his friendship and him being there. You can love your friends and not want to date them. That sounds like sunshine and daisy's. But my break up felt a lot more messy and uneven relationship. Basically, me cry why, why? and I clung to the bull****. Of "It's just who you are, you lack motivation." I just try to get those word, him out of my head. hence I feel crazy.
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