Apparition Posted February 15, 2016 Posted February 15, 2016 I haven't been online much lately, I have been dealing with the death of my Brother which was expected because he was in a coma for a while due to a crash. Whilst trying to grieve my Brother's death, my recent ex-girlfriend (who dumped me and I was cut up about) got in contact with me to apologize. She was friends with my Brother and knew him, so she was invited to the funeral. We spoke before the funeral, we spoke during and after the funeral. I have to admit, I have been a complete mess and trying to puzzle my life back together. However, I wanted to share what happened today because I want people on here to open their eyes and realize their worth. When my ex came back into my life, yes, I was sort of relieved but my mind was too occupied with my Brothers death so I was not as excited as I may have normally been. Today, though, she decided to leave my life again once more. And for what? Well, it doesn't even matter. Point is, she chose to leave my life again. What I realized in that moment is that no matter how much you hurt or how badly you want them back, no matter what YOU go through as a human being, nothing should make them want to stay in your life except by their own WANT. My ex wanted to come back into my life but not for me, for my Brother because she knew him and she wanted to leave my life again. So my point is here that you all need to heal and stop wishing because if it is going to happen, it will happen. Live your life because you have no idea what is around the corner and no one on this earth should make you stop living your life and make you feel worthless like you are not lovable or wanted. Heal yourself.
Push_Through_It Posted February 15, 2016 Posted February 15, 2016 I'm so sorry to hear about your brother and truly hope that you and your family find peace and happiness as you reflect back on the times you shared together. I nearly lost my father to cancer in December and while I despised the fact I had to confront the idea of death (both his and my own) it also really helped put things in a new perspective for me. I've used the analogy that it was like I clicked "zoom out" on Google Earth and instead of staring at one small house I was suddenly able to see the entire city, state, continent, etc. You are absolutely right that "nothing should make them want to stay in your life except by their own WANT" and this is something you will never be able to control regardless of how badly you want to. You can lead a horse to water... 1
Author Apparition Posted February 16, 2016 Author Posted February 16, 2016 I am very sorry to hear about your Father, although, I am glad everything helped you put a new perspective in life. Sometimes that is what we need, a push, like in your very name. A push into the right direction and sometimes we have no choice but to take it. I share your sentiments and hope the same for you. 1
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