KARENK2016 Posted February 15, 2016 Posted February 15, 2016 Hi everyone.. I really wanted to tell my story to HELP anyone that is going through the heartbreak of a breakup. I can say that I literally broke into pieces, my body, heart and mind for months and today I can say, I AM OVER HIM. This is my story of my 2 year relationship... I am 27 years old, a single professional recently qualified as a dentist. I met a 34 year old, single dad of 3 children, non professional, site construction worker for houses. We started dating. I genuinely fell in love with him. Despite the different backgrounds, I loved him for what and who he was. A lot of people told me that I was entering a relationship with past issues i.e 3 children with 2 ex's and the constant ties to his children's mother's etc..It was hard. He constantly had no money to spend on me, and was always saying he was paying for his kids expenses and needs. So I never asked him for anything, gifts or money. We moved in together after 8 months of dating. I helped raised his children and provided emotional and financial support. I paid 50 percent of the holidays and food, clothes, anything the children needed/or wanted. After 12 months, I had to sit my final exams- this was taking place 2 hours away from home. It was the hospital I was allocated so for the next 16 weeks we began a LDR. During this time, my bf cheated on me. He was having a on/off relationship with a girl he was casually seeing for a hook up. I found out through a mutual friend who told me what she had been seeing. I confronted my bf, who denied it at first, but admitted cheating on me. HE SAID HE CHEATED ON ME BECAUSE HE LONELY AND I WAS NOT THERE. He was BLAMING ME for CHEATING ON ME! He broke my heart and trust! I was in complete shock and disbelief that he cheated. I still loved him so much!!!! I was so angry and hurt with him for cheating. He blamed me for HIS cheating, he was angry that I felt hurt, and he kicked me out his house and told me he wanted NOTHING to do with me again!!! Not only did he cheat on me, he was blaming me and angry at me! My heart was in pieces, I still loved him and I wanted answers. After a few days, he contacted me begging for me back. I ignored him and told him it was over. I would still hear from him via friends, or if we were out in the same places, he would post letters to my house, saying he loved me and would never stop trying to get me back. He said he only loved me and he did not want another girl. I BELIEVED HIM. However, all the while he was telling me this, he was still seeing and sleeping with this other girl. When I found out I moved away and disappeared. I started a new life. I still loved him. Fast forward, 4 months, I went on my first date. We went for a drink. I felt sick the entire time I was there. I was there in body, but my heart was in pain. I felt disloyal to my ex, the loyalty to the relationship and the feelings I had. I could not stop thinking of my ex the entire time. At the end of the night, my date kissed me goodnight. I felt DISGUSTED and WRONG because I loved my ex, at that second, everything changed-I LET GO OF HIM, EVERY SINGLE FEELING, MEMORY, THOUGHT I HAD DIED. The VERY fact that he cheated on me for weeks, was able to touch, laugh, spend time, and have sex with somebody else IS NOT LOVE. I could not speak/date another man without feeling sick because I loved my ex yet he was able to readily CHEAT/TOUCH be intimate with another girl! THAT IS NOT LOVE! He was not thinking of me, our relationship, he was thinking about himself each time he cheated! HE DID NOT DESERVE MY LOVE. NOR DID HE DESERVE TO BE IN MY THOUGHTS ANYMORE. I DESERVE BETTER THAN HIM. I LET GO THAT SECOND. Please do not sit crying, worrying over your ex if they LEFT YOU, TREATED YOU BAD, CHEATED ON YOU OR SIMPLY DO NOT WANT TO BE WITH YOU. Look for love in the RIGHT place... but first you need to let go.. 3
LostOnes05 Posted February 15, 2016 Posted February 15, 2016 Yay!!! I'm happy you were able to move on. F that guy...what a character! I'm lonely so...I think I'll brush my teeth, take a shower, go for a run, and cheat on my girlfriend. A real sucker he is. Stay strong and great job!!
BeFierce Posted February 15, 2016 Posted February 15, 2016 @Karen2016, you sound like a beautiful person inside and out and with a huge , huge, huge heart. You have a lot of going on for you, you are young,intelligent, and have a big heart. Make me a promise, and don't fall for another old saggy balls like that ever again. lol
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