I love him but he won't go passed making out! Stuck in a love triangle!

[Mimispark]

my boyfriend is religious (Christian) and doesn't believe in doing anything sexual. He is 18. I on the other hand have done (pretty much) everything but sex.

I decided to break up with him after 4 1/2 months of dating because it was really hard for me and he lives far from my house (but goes to my house.) it was so hard to break up with him because I'm in genuine love with him. He begged me for another chance to prove himself and prove he can change the relationship. I said no.

My ex boyfriend from the summer has been pursuing me and yrsterday, the day after I broke up with my religious boyfriend I went to my ex's house and did... Stuff... with him. naked. That is farther than I've ever gone with the religious boyfriend who will only make out with me.

Afterwards, I felt nauseous and guilty because of how I feel about the religious boyfriend. I talked to him and told him what I did, and he forgave me and we are back together.

I told my ex and he's so sad because he has strong feelings for me and I'm sad too because I like him and everything is fun with him. But it didn't feel right. It feels right with my boyfriend but the thought of only making out with him for another like 7 months before he goes to college exghausted me yet I clearly can't break up with him. And now I'm in a show with my ex so I feel really bad and awkward.

What do you think of this? ALSO a lot of people think my boyfriend is gay... Like a lot of people. but I don't think he is. Also how do I know if I can actually be with someone who I will never be sexual with and to be honest, who probably won't be good anyway? And do I have the strength not to care?

 

I'd love to hear your thoughts..... I'm in a mess and I really need help. Thank you!

 

I also have small feelings for the ex who is crushed I got back with my boyfriend. Every time I chose I end up wanting what I didn't.

Edited February 12, 2016 by Mimispark