Jadey Posted June 9, 2005 Posted June 9, 2005 Hey guys i havent been able to come online in a coupleof weeks as my computer have broken, i am using my sisters. I thought id give yall a little update lol. Im proud of myself right now..Its been 8 days today that i ahve not contacted my ex Which for me is very very good! And i feel the courage tocarry it on. My pride has been playing a big part in it lately, i didnt have any when we first broke up, i did anything i could to try and win him back, but now i refuse to be the one that gives and get nothing back. I still have to see him at school but now i dont go out of my way to see him like i used to. Now i just go along with it and when i see him i try to concentrate on my friends and hang with them, try to notpay him too much asttention. I only have tomorrow, Wedensday and the Friday after that at schoolthen im leaving. Which means the Fridays leaving assembley will probablybe the last time i see him.Which makes me feel pretty sick but at the same time i believe itll be easier to get over him when hes not a;ways there. Plus collge will be a fresh start! I feel better when not contacting him.I feel like the balls in my court and i kind of "win" Before the ball was in his court but now i believe it is in mine instead. Im starting to feel myself slowly getting better. He may think i am over him which worries me, but then i think he knows where to find me so if he wants me that abd he will contact me.right?? I have a feeling when we leave school that he will miss me and worry why i have stopped taxting meand will probaly contact me.But then it will be up to me if i respond or not. So here is the way to make NC easier.. Make a huge phone bill on your mum and sisters phone by calling your ex all the time until they find out and have a big go at you, till youre scared to even touch their phone!! Have no money on your mobile! You can not text them nomteer how much you really really want to if you have no money! Have your computrer break down so you cant use it to text or email. This is what happend to me!I pretty much have no way to contact him anyway. LOL! Im gonna try and not get any money on my phone so no matter how tempted i am to text him,i cant! Sorry just me running on an ego trip lol Good luck everyone
Fallen_Angel Posted June 10, 2005 Posted June 10, 2005 You have every right to be proud! Control is a very good thing. Plus over the summer he'll be "out of sight, out of mind" as they say. It will help your healing immensely. College is awesome. You'll meet plenty of worthy guys. I miss college sometimes. I actually haven't felt an urge to contact my ex all week. I also figure if he wants to talk to me, he knows where to find me. And I started a new job, so I have plenty to concentrate on!
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