DrMario Posted January 30, 2016 Posted January 30, 2016 Hi guys, just posting this to get it off my chest as I feel like a bag of asses right now and need to hold myself together somehow. So my ex text me today basically saying thanks for the letters I wrote to her (I posted these letters through her door Christmas day) and she basically said hope you and your son are well, so this kind of took a toll on me but I managed to shrug it off (I didn't reply) I leave my house then who should I see walking down the street?, yeah you guessed it, my ex and her little boy who I haven't seen since mid December when she cut me off from her life, I was on the other side of the street at this point, I politely smiled and gave a little wave, I thought that would be that then she called me over to her, she asked how I was and wanted me to say hi to the little boy, I gave him a hug and after feeling consumed with anxiety I said I had to go, she reached out and hugged me, I said I'd missed her and to take care, then the little boy joins in the hug like he always used to and I walk away feeling heart broken. I wouldn't say I'm back to square one because I have remained strong throughout and I haven't reached out to her since I wrote her those letters, but it has definitely left me feeling shaken and feeling like I want to cry, when I was with her, she and her little boy became my family and I loved and cherished them dearly, that situation as brief as it was took me back a little and made me think of what I once had. How do you guys cope when this kind of thing happens?, I'm under no illusion's that today meant anything and I know in my heart that it's over for good, but it still hurts and I just wonder when that hurt will blow over...
foam12 Posted January 30, 2016 Posted January 30, 2016 Sometimes we want to hear or see our ex and when we do, it isn't the happy moment we think it would be. I contacted my ex last week over a weird call I received and we had a decent conversation for a few minutes that left me feeling like we were taking a step forward. Then I got a string of crazy texts yesterday saying she never wants to speak to me again after she received the pictures I had framed of her and her kids. I had them made before we broke up but it was going to be an xmas gift for her family and last week she asked for me to ship it to her so I did. Perhaps it brought back memories of things I would do that she liked or us as a couple and was too much or maybe she never wants to speak to me again for some unknown reason. Guess my point is communication with our exes is never what we think it is going to be good or bad. Good meetings or conversations leave us longing for more and bad ones leave us wondering what truck just hit us. I experienced both in a matter of a week. Although I am able to deal with it a lot better after going two months of no contact and getting into a new routine. You will get through this just like you will when the next instance occurs...
Author DrMario Posted January 30, 2016 Author Posted January 30, 2016 Thanks for the reply, I feel your pain, a part of me felt like it was a step forward to hear from her again but then I had to remind myself that it wasn't because it didn't really mean anything and nothing would come of it, the hardest part is knowing it goes back to silence again and despite this little instance nothing has changed. The only thing I can take away from it is that I had the chance to hold her one last time and tell her that I'd missed her, it might not seem like a lot but she was gone for a long time and I never thought I'd be able to do that again, and if nothing else, if it winds up being my last moment with her, it beats out the moment she threw me out and stopped talking to me all together.
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