Feeling better at last!

[Jim nine three]

Hey guys,I just wanted to share my current emotional status with you and I hope that anyone going through a heartbreak will find strength in my words with his/her situation.

 

Long story short,I was in a relationship with my ex for 3,6 years and we broke up 8 months ago.Since then we were on and off up until I asked her back and she rejected me twice.I begged,pleaded,cried in front of her and was a mess for quite a while.She ended up having a relationship with another guy at some point but I don't know her current status (nor want to know for that matter).Over the past weeks I stopped initiating contact and she has asked me out a couple of times but nothing romantic occurred and I felt that I was setting myself up for disappointment again.

 

Well,up until now.Lately after I went through so many sleepless nights crying myself to sleep I decided to give up on the idea of us being together again.I mean,I did everything I could to show her that I really love and care for her but she rejected me like I was nothing to her all the same.I came to the conclusion that I did everything I could to save this relationship and create something new and awesome with her but she wasn't willing to give me a chance.A relationship is all about giving to the one you love and that was not the case here,I was the only one giving everything I could while she went on with her life without me.I decided to stop.I can't give more of my time and feelings to someone who is not willing to do the same for me.I am sure that for everyone here,there is another person out there who will be willing to give to you as much as as you are willing to give to them.

 

Since I adopted this mindset,things have taken a turn for the better.I don't feel the urge to speak to her anymore,nothing will come out of it and I don't want to go through all the pain again.And while I still miss her from time to time,every time I do I remember all the bad things and all the pain I went through and leave it at that.I doubt anything good will come out of me catching up with her current life.Don't get me wrong,I still love and care for her,as I do with all my exes.After all we shared our lives together at some point,and while I wish them the best,for me they are a thing of the past,and that's where they should stay.Now,if she wanted us to get back together she will have to do all the work to show me that she is worth my time,though I don't count on that and honestly I am not sure if I could take her back at all.

 

Have faith people,even if things don't work out as we want them in the end,I am sure that there is someone else out there who will give everything to share their life with ours.And if the one who rejected you can't see what an awesome person you are,well it is their loss.