Need support - I don't want to fall off the post-NC wagon!

[Lovezen_30]

Posted a thread a while ago about the fact I'd developed feelings for a long-term male friend, we'll call him Robbie. I kept quiet because he has a gf, until I couldn't take it any more, at which point his reaction was something like "I thought we were platonic friends...I know the dynamic has changed between us but I haven't really been able to process that" (because he's in a relationship). I then said I need to move away from the friendship to protect myself, he accepted but then wanted to know when he could contact me. I said: don't. And I haven't checked to see if he's been in touch (different email account).

 

It's been 2 months and I've been doing okay. Have thought about him less & there been more or less no tears. Until yesterday! I got a message from his best male friend out of the blue. The guy said he was just off the phone to Robbie & thought he'd check in & say hey after all this time. Back in the day, myself & this guy were close but haven't spoken in years! It was clear from the conversation that the two guys had spoken about me but Robbie had not told him about what had passed between us - he clearly didn't know we're not on talking terms. Why would he not tell his best mate about this?

 

Anyway, me & his mate have been talking back and forth but I'm going to politely wind it down as it's just making me think of Robbie. I've been rebuilding my life but find myself thinking about never speaking to him again & have cried twice in last few days at the thought of this. The sadness seems to have re-emerged out of nowhere. I've been doing so well. Help me...

Edited January 27, 2016 by Lovezen_30
PS. I accidentally hit publish button before I could fix the title - I'm not drunk, promise.