JohnGoober Posted January 21, 2016 Posted January 21, 2016 I feel like I've been a failure from the past 4 plus years. I remember the day I lost my self confidence in my studies. I have anxiety, depression, chronic stress and I basically don't feel anything around me, I don't feel alive. Because of my these, I kind of limited myself talking to other people. I feel like a loser and I clearly know its because I think too much negatively, low self-esteem and the one thing for all my **** ups in life is Procrastination. After I graduated in 2014, I haven't really done anything productive at all. I did a 4 month internship and that's it. I was told I'm socially a bit awkward, shy, not confident enough at work. It's not that I feel shy talking to them, I feel stressed most of the time and I feel like it's better to keep myself quiet. I also feel like I don't have anything interesting to talk or won't know how to talk freely with them. Being unproductive, not having a goal, procrastinating even the smallest tasks, drinking alcohol everyday from the past 3 months are the reasons for my current messed up life. I didn't understand what was happening to me. I desperately needed help but I didn't have the courage to share these with anyone. I want to come out of this life and be successful. I have lost a lot in my life because of my untreated depression... I don't even know if I'm depressed anymore. I don't feel sad anymore nor I feel alive. I don't have interest in anything anymore. To add to this, an astrologer has said many bad things about my life. I have decided to visit a shrink. I really want to change my life, I want to stop procrastinating, take better care about myself and gain social skills and confidence. I don't know how to start. I have stopped drinking alcohol and stopped smoking. I'm wondering.. would visiting a shrink and getting therapy help me feel alive again? would I be able to be confident about myself? Any advice or queries, please do ask.
deckard11 Posted January 21, 2016 Posted January 21, 2016 I've come to find our that therapy works for some and not for others. I guess you just need to try it out and see. I will say this, good therapy will cost you a lot of money. I went to therapy through a program at one of my old jobs because my issues were affecting my work. The other time I went through my health insurance which was a joke because I have state assisted insurance. Both therapists were a joke and only seemed to be doing this because they were getting paid either way. I sought out private therapy but the prices they changed were insane. Good luck to you.
klim Posted January 21, 2016 Posted January 21, 2016 (edited) I visited psycheatrist two years ago after my girl-friend, Ola had shouted at me and said that "there is too much of me" (I'm from Poland, sorry for my grammar} SHe meant that had been fed up with me. I fell into deep depression. Wodka was of no help. I called my friend a therapist - my hands were shaking all over when I dialled - she adviced me to go to her friend, a psycheatrist. They put me in the day-time hospital Then with the help of drugs, gradually I came to myself. Now I believe no women would drive me off-balance! Edited January 21, 2016 by klim
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