niceguy69 Posted June 6, 2005 Posted June 6, 2005 My gf of 1.5 years broke up with me 6 weeks ago for some scumbag dude. We are both 25. This has been the longest 6 weeks of my life. When you spend 20 hours a day for 6 weeks thinking about life you really learn a lot about yourself. I finally realized the only real reason I wanted her back was for sex. I had the best sex of my life with her, so when she left I thought I would never find that again. Unfortunately we banged 4 times when we were drunk in the past 6 weeks, so that kept me attached longer and prolonged the pain. She stopped going out with her rebound bf after a month then said she wanted to wait a few weeks and heal more and then we could go out maybe on a date. She said she wants to see what might happen between us now. WTF!!! When she said that it set me 2 weeks back emotionally and the demons came back into my head. My love with her was almost gone, then she said that. Saying "maybe one day" is like cutting the scar wide open all over again. But now after 6 weeks I realize I am never going back to her no matter what and my love for her is gone. I sure as hell am not going to wait "a few weeks" for her to heal herself. The pain she put me through is worse than anything I ever experienced and I could never go back to someone that put me through it. Thinking of hooking up with her now makes me sick. Thinking of her vagina disgusts me. So the reason I am posting this is just to let you guys know, it takes about 6 weeks to get over the girl when you went out for 1.5 years. Maybe that is just for me though. I still think about her all day long, but its peaceful thoughts now. I just don't care about her and what she does. Everyone gets blinded by love and only sees the "good" in their gf. When you finally fall out of love you see all their problems they had the whole time. And I am finally meeting new girls, so that clears your mind for a few hours while you're with some other chick at least. Finally my advice is delete pearl jam - black off your computer lol
lindya Posted June 6, 2005 Posted June 6, 2005 Thinking of her vagina disgusts me. Doesn't sound like you've quite reached the stage of having peaceful thoughts yet.
lindya Posted June 7, 2005 Posted June 7, 2005 6 weeks isn't a very long time. I'm sure once some of these negative feelings about your ex fade away, you'll feel more able to get back into the dating scene.
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