bruteoutlawz Posted January 16, 2016 Posted January 16, 2016 Was with my ex for 11 years, i was 22 and she was 18 when we met. At the end of October 2015 she sat me down and basically told me that her feelings had changed and that she had kissed some guy she had met in a park while walking the dog. I did the usual begging to try to work things out but all she kept saying was she doesn't think things can change. This went on for a week and one night she pops her head into the front room at 4am in the morning and says "you're not going to like this but the guy i kissed has broken a couple of ribs and hes up the hospital and i am going to go and pick him up" (which was probably a lie) we had a big argument and off she went and didn't come home until 11 that morning. After a few days she went to stay with her aunt and then confessed to me through text that she had slept with the guy a few days earlier. Gave me the whole sob story about being emotionally messed up and how she had a rubbish childhood (all to deflect away from what she was doing and to feel less guilty no doubt). She said that i was her best friend and that she wanted to stay friends and like an idiot i agreed. I moved out 2 weeks after she had initially sat me down and told me her feelings had changed, we stayed in contact and a month later she turns up at my house and asks me to come out to the car where she tells me shes pregnant. i didn't say a lot to that and as i got out of the car she says "i do love you" (what i am supposed to do with that i don't know). She now lives with the guy. We have stayed in contact since then through text but they have hardly been the greatest conversations. Every now and then she tells me she misses me and that she loves me but it doesn't mean a lot to me after everything shes done to me. Stupidly i still love her and think about her 24/7. I am trying to move on but its so hard when i still love her. I am starting to think we cant be friends (at least not at the moment, if at all) because all it does is hurt me but then a part of me yearns for her contact. Thought i would share that and welcome anyone's input.
Author bruteoutlawz Posted January 16, 2016 Author Posted January 16, 2016 Another thing i wanted to add was that she has shown me no respect and treated me like a piece of **** but i cant shake my love for her like she seems to have for me. She showed no emotion through the whole break up, i think i saw her cry twice, while i was a totally destroyed and crying my eyes out she would just look stoney faced and just say sorry. She had already made her decision to go off with this other guy before she even told me her feelings had changed but tried playing it off like she just liked having someone to talk to so she didn't come off as a horrible person.
Author bruteoutlawz Posted January 18, 2016 Author Posted January 18, 2016 3 days no contact now and this morning she just texts me a single kiss, X. Every part of me wants to text back but I have held off from doing so.
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