phoenixfire7122 Posted January 5, 2016 Posted January 5, 2016 (edited) I saw him today, but he did not notice me. I was driving to work and he was in the opposite lane stopped at a red light talking on his phone. Its been 6 months since our breakup, but my heart still sunk in my chest. We only dated a short time, but it was incredible. Looking back I know it was a mistake, he was divorcing his wife and we were introduced by some mutual friends. We hit it off instantly. I honestly thought I had found my soul mate. After all the years and heartbreaks from the liars and cheaters I had been with, this one seemed to be Mr Honestly and integrity. Our relationship ran at full force, it felt like I had always known him, I trusted him completely. Then came the day when I was sick at home. He messaged me on Facebook to tell me he would come see me tomorrow to make sure I was ok. I responded back was he going to stay long, I could make sure to order take out for us or something. Then came the goodbye. An I promise we can still be friends. That was a bald face lie. two text messages later he blocked me on all social media and even blocked my phone number. All i did was ask he to change his mind and come back. God I loved him. I haven't heard anything from him since. I see him every once and a while when I am driving to work. I think of all those long conversations together, how we used to laugh and talk for hours, how we would text into the early morning and say how much we cared for each other. It hurts so bad to know that I could feel this strongly and just be so easy to throw away. That I wasn't even worth the conversation to try and fix things. I found out he is dating again now, and that has torn me up inside. I see him sometimes when we pass on the highway, and my eyes still fill with tears.... Edited January 5, 2016 by a LoveShack.org Moderator paragraphs ~6
privategal Posted January 6, 2016 Posted January 6, 2016 Im so sorry, please know this has nothing to do with you. When you are going through divorce you are in an emotional crisis even when you wanted the divorce or are no longer in love with the ex, its just an emotional time and he may have rebounded with you or needed comfort of a woman. He may have moved too fast, felt he was not ready, been confused, many things. At the time he likely meant everything he said and enjoyed the time with you too. the only thing is being in a marriage for so long, once you are free you may have some oats to sew, want to know your options, have a lot of fear of getting hurt again, have too many emotions. You could have done everything perfectly and been the perfect woman to him, it wouldn't have mattered, the time wasn't right and he couldn't do it. Please take time to grieve it and know it is an aweful time he had to process. I too initiated a divorce and left my husband. It wasn't traumatic, he wasn't abusive, it just was a bad match. I wasn't broken up about the divorce but I was a mess deep inside because it was a failure. In that process of divorce I met the most loving, caring, most perfect man. He treated me like a princess and was sincere, loving, faithful, we had SO much fun and got close. But...in the end...for NO reason, I broke his heart. I just couldn't do it and settle. I couldn't explain it, he did nothing wrong. It was so hard. I did love him. But I was finding myself and all the emotions I buried inside were causing me to just not be able to handle a whole new relationship no matter how good. It was that way for a long time. You have to let go and grieve and heal. Its OK to feel hurt and cry and feel abandoned and rejected. Don't beat yourself up. It will get better,and you are normal and the pain will last for awhile but WILL subside. Don't let it scare you into new love or trusting another when your ready. hugs.
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