anonymousbear00101100 Posted January 2, 2016 Posted January 2, 2016 (edited) We've been broken up for two months and strict NC for four weeks. I've accepted that I don't want to go back and I was really happy and rarely thinking of her until the past couple of days. However, I've had the same dream a few days in a row now, where she begs me to come back and tries to hold my hand. I tell her I don't want to, but I eventually give in and a feeling of euphoria washes over me. It's the exact feeling I felt the last few times we got back together after breaking up in real life. This morning I feel especially awful, and got the urge to look through her Facebook and IG. She doesn't post on either, so I didn't see anything but her face, which all of a sudden looks so much more beautiful than I remember, and that is eating away at me. I feel ashamed and embarrassed that I was weak. My heart is telling me these dreams are a sign that I still want to be with her and that I should reach out. I had been doing so well and now I feel like I'm treading backwards. I've gone from thinking about her once every couple of hours to thinking about her constantly. Does anyone else have these type of dreams or know how to get rid of them? How common is it to have a stretch of bad days? Edited January 2, 2016 by rjblak13
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