I dont understand anything, im so clueless and so worried

[Tilli]

Hi there everyone,

 

i hope you might help me with your opinions and that would be so cool.

 

So i've known this guy for about 1 year and since then we've always got along well. we laugh (he is so funny ) and yeah we talk, but about that sometimes it's not that easy this talking thing because we talk non sense and that i understand and that i like a lot because it's not difficult, it's very easy in fact and it means nothing and it's so great because i laugh a lot with all of that and that's it. The thing is that well sometimes he asks me things and i dont understand, why does he do that why cant he leave it (i always think that to myself) and that worries me a lottttttt and i never know what to say i really dont i get totally speachless and the stupiest thing those things make me cry, of course i dont but if he'd ask me those things in some other place less public oh well i certainly would and i dont like it at all, and the worse of it all i dont say any of that to him because i cant i dont know i just cant i just wanted him to stop and the problem is that he stops by himself and that is a relief for me (i am so relieved when stops with that it's so much better for me) but then after sometime he begins with all of that again and he is not bad at all, he's nice and has a lot of patience, actually i think he is too patient no one is usually that with me and i think that that's the problem im so used to that, that having someone so different haaa awful. why does he insist with all of that, cant we just keep talking **** and keep it simple and laughing like always? and why cant i say anything, why am i being so grr that nothing comes out?!? when he asks me things like are you good, that's just stupied, that's a very simple question and in my head i want to answer it right a way but at that moment haaaa why cant i answer it like normal people? everybody asks that everyone, why do i freeze if the answer is so current.

Some things he sometimes asks me and i dont know what to say or do we really dont get it, are are you good (and this sentence is not the worse, the worse for me is when he asks me how are you feeling, oh i really hate when he asks me that, when i hear that i want to punch him in the face, are you my doctor or what, i always think). He asked me only once how are you feeling and thank god he did that only once. The converation about that wasnt easy for me because after he asked me that i freezed as usual didnt say anything, he insisted then i answered good, he told you dont seem good, i didnt say anything and then he asked me back is that your normal self then and i answered him i guess. He left quickly and dont know how he was i just relieved he stopped. Another one and that is easier for me to understand, i dont like it but ohh my girl, some other time he we were talking and then you know what/why you're amazing (what a hell). Sweetie (he did that once and i oh my god, it was actually the only 2nd time i could tell him something right away but instead telling, you go to hell or stop it please or somethin i told him oh my god). He also has called me wife but why? if im nothing like that i am not, why does he do that? we are not 16 or 17 anymore we're 30 almost but i dont see that why he does he do that? no, i'm not his wife or anybody's else wife, girl etc. Sometimes i would ask him for help and if he knew or could he would then once he asked before you would ask me for help now you dont do that, i couldnt answered him anything as well (i wasn explecting him to say something). And then there's too the have you missed me (that was once we didnt talk for a week or so and when we start talking again he asked that, i didnt get it and i still dont because well we didnt talk but we saw each other we just didnt talk to each other because sometimes he does too much and i need me but then he keeps with that. Thank god he never asked me that again. Well then once he asked about my weekend if i was doing something (at that time it was winter and i was a bit sick) so i answered him no and i asked him the same he didnt answer it was like he had paused, time had stopped for him, i asked him again then he answered he'd probably have a lazy weekend (i found this answer very funny, lazy weekend!!). More recently after christmas and close to the end of 2015 he asked me out of the blue so well do you have any resolutions for the new year (2016) to come? and i was like to myself not again please dont make me think i hate you when you do that. Some days later we were talking and i told him i was curious and wanted to asked him something and he said ask then my question as always it was a dumb one. He grew up in Australia and i ask him if he had had a kanguru as a pet, of course he smiled a bit but then as i asked him that i dont know he looked at me in some other way (i usually find strange the way he looks at me but maybe it's his way i've always thought) really looking at me, more intensily i guess and while doing that he asked me back is that really what you want me to ask? This is odd for me remembering this and thinking of this precise moment i guess that something has happened there but i dont know exactly what and i think i might have missed something there. We have now 4 days of holidays and will meet again next week. I havent seen him since then i not sure but im worried then people telling me general things like you need bla bla bla i dont get anything and no one tells me anything directly.

 

You people out there do you have any good opinions/sugestions for all of that? i'd really appreciate some help/comments on this or i dont know something. Sorry about the big text.

Thank you all

 

Bye and yeah by the way have a great 2016

 

Tillie

[d0nnivain]

I think you both could stand to improve your conversational skills. I do not understand why you want to kill him because he asked you how you were feelings.