elly key Posted December 30, 2015 Posted December 30, 2015 It's been 6 months after our breakup and 3 weeks after he made NC after the warm and promising conversation we had. Since then, I've constantly had good days and bad days. Good days are the days when I don't need such lier and betrayer in my life, the one who promised to love me forever, take care of me, make me a priority in his life. Then he just dumped me out of blue when faced issues (he got promoted at work and just felt that our LDR relationship wouldn't work because of little time for communication) that could be managed if we worked them out together. We planned to do everything together, but he gave up everything. He ruined everything within 3 days. Bad days are the days when I freaking miss him. I think what he's done to me and just can't believe it. How a person that I felt was the nicest person I knew, the person who was my counterpart, my soulmate - how he could turn out to be so mean, so insensitive? His every word was nothing, every promise was such a lie. On bad days I cry a lot and can do nothing with myself. I feel like I will always be alone as I work a lot and simply don't have time to meet new people. And when I found time, I didn't meet anyone worthy so I stopped trying as this is killing my belief. That's so unfair that I have to experience all that. I never hurt people, I'm a good person who always helps and supports others. I'm beautiful inside and outside (I know how it sounds, but I feel like it is so). But I have one thing in my life that differs me from others and I that makes my personal life more difficult: I have a physical disability that I cant improve. And now I'm broken inside either because the person who I loved broke me. Things seem never be the same anymore. So as you can see, today is a bad day for me. Thank you for reading all this.
Nickr3023 Posted December 30, 2015 Posted December 30, 2015 Its your left brain and your right brain fighting with each other. The left side is the logical side...when you think with that, is when you have your good days. The right side is your emotional side...when you think with that, is when you have your bad days. I too am very much like you, unfortunately the emotional side of my brain takes over far too often. I've started counseling in the hopes of being able to think more logically and mindfully about the situation and tossing emotion right out the window. I'm sure there are plenty of exercises online on how to get your brain to think more logically instead of emotionally. 1
Author elly key Posted December 30, 2015 Author Posted December 30, 2015 Its your left brain and your right brain fighting with each other. The left side is the logical side...when you think with that, is when you have your good days. The right side is your emotional side...when you think with that, is when you have your bad days. I too am very much like you, unfortunately the emotional side of my brain takes over far too often. I've started counseling in the hopes of being able to think more logically and mindfully about the situation and tossing emotion right out the window. I'm sure there are plenty of exercises online on how to get your brain to think more logically instead of emotionally. Thank you. I will check these exercises.
Nickr3023 Posted December 30, 2015 Posted December 30, 2015 Thank you. I will check these exercises. I also noticed you said you had a physical disability. I do not, but I can empathize with you that has to be a very difficult thing. But don't let that stop you from finding happiness. If you want to feel better about that, plus laugh (which I can say does help you forget about your troubles for a little while). If you have Netflix, watch comedian Josh Blue, his special is called Sticky Change. He has cerebral palsy and he's made a name for himself as a national comedian. He's hysterical, he has a physical disability, and he himself is married. So don't let a physical disability make you feel like there isn't someone out there for you.
Author elly key Posted December 30, 2015 Author Posted December 30, 2015 I also noticed you said you had a physical disability. I do not, but I can empathize with you that has to be a very difficult thing. But don't let that stop you from finding happiness. If you want to feel better about that, plus laugh (which I can say does help you forget about your troubles for a little while). If you have Netflix, watch comedian Josh Blue, his special is called Sticky Change. He has cerebral palsy and he's made a name for himself as a national comedian. He's hysterical, he has a physical disability, and he himself is married. So don't let a physical disability make you feel like there isn't someone out there for you. Thanks. I don't have Netflix as I live on in Europe, but I checked him out on YouTube. Great example. Thanks again.
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