My Poem to Her Husband/my nothing (not even my MM, he never was my anything)

June 2, 2005

I just don't feel like it,

I don't feel like letting you use my body;

I don't feel like being yours only when YOU can or YOU want

Today I just don't feel like it,

to let you use me and abuse my

love like if it were nothing

I just don't feel like it

to let you show me off whenever you want

and to feel like a nobody

Today I just don't feel like it

to wait for your phone call

and to live incarcerated

I got fed up of being the other one

I got fed up of all the waiting;

to hide my feelings and stay quiet

I got fed up of being second best

and to always go behind peoples backs

and to be in your life only half

Today you don't hurt me anymore

the time shared has been my experience

Today I don't feel the embarrassment

to scream to the whole world

that I lived in love

I got tired of being the other woman

I will now be someone's WOMAN

I got fed up with all the waiting

of hiding my feelings and crying

I got fed up of being second best

and to always sneak around

and to be in your life only half

What was is no more...

June 3, 2005

That was a nice poem and all, very creative. Having said that, I am not feeling the sympathy I think it was supposed to drum up. You did put yourself in that situation didn't you? Didn't you know he was married? I know the guy was a worm for cheating and everything but don't you think you carry some of the blame?

June 3, 2005

Dear FedUp

I feel your pain.

We could expand on that some more ....

I just don't feel like it

Why can you cut off

The contact when it

Suits you?

I just don't feel like it

Explaining to friends

Why after all this time

I am still single

And alone

Today I look back

And remember all

That has passed

All that you have NOT done.

Chin Up!

June 3, 2005

OK, I AM STILL FIGUREING OUT HOW THIS WORKS... SO MY POSTS ARE KIND OF DISORGANIZED AND RANDOM... BUT YOUR POEM... I AM GOING TO POST IT ON MY WALL AND READ IT 1000 TIMES TODAY. I AM GOING TO KEEP IT NEAR MY BED SO I CAN READ IT WHEN I WAKE UP SO MANY TIMES IN THE NIGHT TWISTING AND CRYING.

PLEASE SEAGIRL, FIND ANOTHER FORUM - WE GET ENOUGH PERSECUTION IN THE REAL WORLD. OF COURSE I KNOW WHAT MY PART WAS... BUT I FELL IN LOVE. ALL MY DESPERATE NEEDY LOVED STARVED HOLES WERE TEMPORARILY FILLED AND NOW I PAY THE CONSEQUENCE.

HE IS HAVING FUN LUAUGHING AND DRINKING IN A BAR WITH BUDDIES AND I CANT WALK BY THE BAR WITHOUT GETTING SNEERED AND GLARED AT BECASUE I AM THE "REASON HIS MARRIEGE FELL APART."

June 3, 2005

Purple-aren't you persecuting me for expressing my opinion? We all have different opinions, that is what makes this forum great.

June 3, 2005

Originally posted by seagirl
That was a nice poem and all, very creative. Having said that, I am not feeling the sympathy I think it was supposed to drum up. You did put yourself in that situation didn't you? Didn't you know he was married? I know the guy was a worm for cheating and everything but don't you think you carry some of the blame?

Was it meant for sympathy? I don't think it was

June 3, 2005

This is a forum meant for support. There are two reasons to come here - to get sympathy and advice, or to give sympathy and advice. I don't see what the point is of attacking somebody for looking for sympathy.

I'm sure she's learned her lesson about getting involved with a married man. She's probably been told by countless people in RL that she's a tramp. Now she comes here, finally gathering the strength to realize that she doesn't have to allow herself to be subjugated by her love for this man, and she doesn't need us to tell her that the messed up. She needs us to tell her how to do better.

June 3, 2005

Brother Aaron--I think you are taking what I said out of context.

June 3, 2005

Originally posted by seagirl
That was a nice poem and all, very creative. Having said that, I am not feeling the sympathy I think it was supposed to drum up. You did put yourself in that situation didn't you? Didn't you know he was married? I know the guy was a worm for cheating and everything but don't you think you carry some of the blame?

I did not come here to get sympathy so having said that, it really does not matter what you think.

Originally posted by BrotherAaron
This is a forum meant for support. There are two reasons to come here - to get sympathy and advice, or to give sympathy and advice. I don't see what the point is of attacking somebody for looking for sympathy.

I'm sure she's learned her lesson about getting involved with a married man. She's probably been told by countless people in RL that she's a tramp. Now she comes here, finally gathering the strength to realize that she doesn't have to allow herself to be subjugated by her love for this man, and she doesn't need us to tell her that the messed up. She needs us to tell her how to do better.

Thanks for answering to this person's attack but in all honesty all I came here for is to give a little something to those who are in the situation I was in. To let them know through my poem that they are not alone and as they can see i have also been there and now am through with it. I never posted, "oh somebody please tell me if i am right or not" or "give me advice on how to deal with this" I am beyond that now and if it was my fault partially or not this person does not know because i have never said my story so she just wants to go by her first instinct which in this case was wrong.

June 3, 2005

I am sorry to have caused all this, this is NOT what I intended. I was just stating my opinion.

June 4, 2005

YOu wrote :

in all honesty all I came here for is to give a little something to those who are in the situation I was in. To let them know through my poem that they are not alone and as they can see i have also been there and now am through with it.

So, just so you know... mission accomplished with me. I loved your poem. I printed it out and taped it to my wall.

Thanks.

June 6, 2005

I also love your poem, must copy it down and read it a thousand times !!! thanks !!

and thanks to TiredOfWaiting also

I love the way you wrote:

I just don't feel like it

Why can you cut off

The contact when it

Suits you?

I would like to add

I just don't feel like it

why every time

you can cut off the contact

when it suits you?

I just don't feel like

explaining to my friends

why I am all alone on the weekends

while you spend your time with your family

I just don't feel like it

that I am not able to

call on you anytime

when I feel upset or blue

or just need a friend to talk to

I just don't feel like it

that I am never a priority

that there are always things

more important than me

I just don't feel like it

the feeling that

knowing I have no rights

to ask for anything

for I have nothing to begin with

coz you are never mine...!!

I just don't feel like it

knowing all the things I never have

or could ever have

and remembering all the things

you have never given me

Perhaps

I just don't feel like

remembering that

I have ever known

or loved you...

if only I could.

June 7, 2005

Originally posted by seagirl
I am sorry to have caused all this, this is NOT what I intended. I was just stating my opinion.

Alot of people have said ALOT worse before.. I think maybe people misunderstood what you said.. tyook it out of context..

June 7, 2005

Erica-thank you for what you said

June 8, 2005

Originally posted by seagirl
Erica-thank you for what you said

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