Lovesconfusing94 Posted December 22, 2015 Posted December 22, 2015 I'm 21 years old and I've been with this girl Mckaila off and on for about 4 years now. We met through my best friend who was dating her we found out we were attracted to each other and ended up getting together she split up with him who she had been with for years. This was probably the first time I felt something different love if you want to call it with a girl and probably my 4th relationship in my life keep in mind I was only 17 when I got with her she was 16. Everything was great until she couldn't take our life style of drug use anymore and we split up. Now she got with another one of my best friends from like elementary school which really hurt me but after a few months got back with me after finding out he was a real ass hole we probably split up 3 more times after that and every time she went back with him. "She can't be alone she is very lonely and has daddy issues I guess u can say" well when we were together she got pregnant me being a drug addict still wouldn't stop so we split up then she moved back in with her mom we were friends until I really got heavy and was being complete ass hole so we split up for good never planing on getting back together. I hit my rock bottom I was extremely depressed and caught a serious charge "armed robbery" now we haven't talked in about 7 months and around this time the baby was supposed to be due. Well I was looking at 5 years in prison and she knew this well in jail waiting for my sentence she sends me an unexpected letter sayin I had the baby I want us to be together and be part of our daughters life she said this knowing it was going to be a long time till I got out. "There was definitely a connection between us from the start" she really didn't do anything to me except get with my best friend when we were apart which hurt a lot and still does. Now I did a lot to her as far as emotionally wreck her with my drug use. I got sentenced to a 18mo drug rehab and I was doing good up until about a week ago when I was forced to leave due to well I'm not going to go there but my girl understood but yet again I hurt her again because now I've got a warrant and am looking at 5 years for sure prison. Since I left rehab she has been holding on 100% Im staying at my parents house waiting for my warrant to come out she is living at her moms 2 hrs away she has made an effort multiple times to come down and spend time with me our time together is awesome I plan on going down there for Xmas to spend time with her family "she is very close to my parents" now she told me that she has a boyfriend guy to talk to and she just started escorting now this hurts me a lot but she is so upfront about it and could so easily keep it a secret she says it's not a real relationship and it's for money which she does need because she can't support our daughter who is one year now with a job that is only 2x a week I believe her completely and really this isn't my concern my question is why does this girl hold on to me we know each other very well btw but I haven't done anything but hurt her and she knows I'm going to prison and still for some reason hasn't given up. What is your opinion on everything?
Glitters Posted December 22, 2015 Posted December 22, 2015 I would advice to first sort out your prison stuff and then think about love ?
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