sickofyou Posted December 21, 2015 Posted December 21, 2015 (edited) Just a mere few days ago I felt the world was coming to an end. My ex and I were engaged and I found that she was cheating on me. She wanted me to believe it was only for a few days but in the aftermath of things, I'm finding that it had been going on longer. To make things worse, in my face, she and the guy are now together. I guess the part I don't quite get is the dude is far less attractive. However, I'm heartbroken. I've been married before, had several swrious relationships but none have huet me to the depth of this one. I really thought things would led to marriage and famifamily with her. I've been no contact for about 3 weeks now. At first I felt I wasn't going to make it. The walls were closing in, panic attacks, dreams of her, anything that would remind me of us I would run across. I finally got to the point of anger. "How dare she do this to me after everything I've done for her and tolerated" I'm to the point of good luck because you will need it and I proved through actions that I was always there. This new guy is a rebound and most likely won't last, I'm pretty sure he won't be as loyal as I was. Especially with the heartless things she's put me through and expected me to be accepting of it. A few days ago she tried contacting me a few times but I ignored the attempts. I don't know what she's up to or wanting but I'm just done at this point. Use to ,I would have broken my neck trying to reciprocate but I'm filled with so much disappointment and disgust that I don't even care to talk. So my point of all this. For those of you that thinks there is no light at the end of the tunnel, trust me there is. You have to learn to accept people as they are. You can't love them enough to change them from a bad quality person to what you think they should be. If they are bad, leave, find someone else that's more fitting. I thought I could love hwr enough so that she wouldn't feel the need to lie, be mean etc. I ignored the red flags. I wouldn't wish this feeling on anyone. Keep your heads up, the pain does pass. I promise. Edited December 21, 2015 by sickofyou Grammer 1
Smudgster Posted December 21, 2015 Posted December 21, 2015 When I was in the depths of despair I couldn't read threads like this because I didn't want to believe it was over. Now I'm mostly through the process and can see him for what he is I like to read them and feel the same. There is a process to go through and wow, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
Author sickofyou Posted December 22, 2015 Author Posted December 22, 2015 I seriously didn't think I was going to make it. It was to the point a good friend of mine stayed with me for a few days. I never contemplated suicide but he and his wife took it upon themselves to take my firearms to their place as a precaution. I really didn't see a light at the end of the tunnel. Some days are better than others. Whereas it use to be more bad than good.
LLQ1986 Posted December 22, 2015 Posted December 22, 2015 Yes it does get better. 7 weeks and still counting, I still think of my ex every now & then but it doesn't pain me as much anymore, just reminiscing the good times. Looking back, those days sucked pretty bad but i survived. I now look forward to a brand new year, new beginning
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