LilMama1097 Posted December 20, 2015 Posted December 20, 2015 It's been 6 days since we broke up and I felt relieved when it happened. He was so mean, snappy, irritable, negative, etc. I haven't spoke to him in 2 days and out of the blue today I just started bawling! I got in the shower so my kids wouldn't see me crying and I cried the whole shower and STILL crying!! Why's it hitting me NOW? I HATE feeling sad, this is horrible. I don't want to miss him, I don't want to care. Through this whole crying thing though I haven't wanted to contact him at all though. I don't care if he misses me or not, I just want to be over him.
Ryan_XD Posted December 21, 2015 Posted December 21, 2015 I guess it took time for you to realise that someone who was a big part of your life is no longer going to be their like he once was. Time is a great healer, trust me and I'm sure everyone on here will agree. It's good that you're grieving and it's perfectly normal, let it all out now so it doesn't come back and bite you in the future. I'm sure he's feeling just as ****ty, concentrate on your children and make it easy for them as I'm sure they'll be picking up on the sadness and distress! All the best x 1
Author LilMama1097 Posted December 21, 2015 Author Posted December 21, 2015 Thank you Ryan! One step at a time. I'm trying so hard. I finally stopped crying. It didn't help that after posting this, he broke NC and text me being a jerk because someone told him I had a new boyfriend smh. Another man is the LAST thing I want or need right now.
SincereOnlineGuy Posted December 21, 2015 Posted December 21, 2015 Y'know what you gotta do... right now... Devise a promise and a plan to separate the following two elements from one another: "him" - who is the individual, and who had factors about his personality/spirit/outlook/place in life which helped to bring about your break-up and YOUR INVESTMENT IN 'him' - which you need to continue to regard as wonderful, and worthy, and then recognize your own willingness to show the vulnerability which that investment entailed (as a good thing). Keep valuing the (fact that you MADE an investment)... while doubly valuing the knowledge that you can do it again, later. That's the first step toward finding a comfortable place with all of this.
Author LilMama1097 Posted December 21, 2015 Author Posted December 21, 2015 Thank you sincereonlineguy!!! When I was crying in the shower today, I was thinking of all the cap I've been through and ask the pain I've Experienced and yet how openly and vulnerability I loved my ex throughout the years. I thought that was something incredible when I thought about it. I have string moments and unfortunately weak moments as well. The goal is to have more strong then weak until I'm Healed from this.
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