Author Pamvhv Posted December 18, 2015 Author Posted December 18, 2015 Today was his birthday. I was in town where he's staying taking my son to boxing. I asked him if he wanted to to come by. He said no. I guess after the kid's Christmas I need to rip the band-aid off. I'll start boxing up his stuff now. Honestly I'm just feeling lonely. I'm very alone out here away from family and friends.
Author Pamvhv Posted December 21, 2015 Author Posted December 21, 2015 I'm a huge fool. Huge. I thought I was doing fine. I'm not. Every time I'm around him I turn into a blubbering mess of saying sorry for whatever imaginary thing he's made up that I did this time and I can't handle it. Four more events then I have to cut it out. I'm breaking my own sanity.
Smudgster Posted December 21, 2015 Posted December 21, 2015 I had similar. My ex came back and we had a fantastic night. The next date he was cold and when he left the day after I didn't hear from him for four days. When he did finally text I told him its completely done and I won't be going back. The relief of the uncertainty no longer playing such s massive part in my life is palpable. 1
Author Pamvhv Posted December 22, 2015 Author Posted December 22, 2015 I had similar. My ex came back and we had a fantastic night. The next date he was cold and when he left the day after I didn't hear from him for four days. When he did finally text I told him its completely done and I won't be going back. The relief of the uncertainty no longer playing such s massive part in my life is palpable. I just have to make it through this week with him around Wed, Thu, Fri, and Sat and then I think I'll get to go NC and move on for myself.
Author Pamvhv Posted December 28, 2015 Author Posted December 28, 2015 (edited) ***Update*** We went to the final holiday family party tonight. He told me he wants to make us work. I don't want to end up with him walking out again. He can't communicate his needs well. I'm a very strong and very independent woman. I've had to be. How can I make sure he's communicating his relationship needs? Edited December 28, 2015 by a LoveShack.org Moderator
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